starry nite

jazz's entry!

2005-11-15T16:42:00.000+08:00

jazz wanna me update!! so i'm here to update!!
jazz!! idiot idiot!!!!!!!!!!

hol..

2005-11-02T00:46:00.000+08:00

hol is over!! i enjoyed my hols!! almost everidae out at town... shoppin.. havin hi tea.. dinner.. wah!! can u imagines all e' fats tt is growin?? wahaha.. hope my swims did help.. wahaha.. :p

enjoyed a lot durin e' ktv session.. :p a bdae surprise for jr.. surprise ar.. :p haha.. can u guys imagine.. we actualli sang fr 11 to 8? wahaha.. :p well.. sore throat n slight fever after tt.. anw.. enjoyed tt lots.. :p

spent a lot in dis hol i think.. too much le.. n mostli on FOOD!! oh no.. more swims i think..

i prepared dinner for my family.. haha.. :p fried egg n sweet n sour prawn.. it's superb.. believe mi.. u'll fall in love wif my food i tell u.. wahaha.. :p

there's happi thgs happened.. of cuz there's unhappy thgs too.. :p bt i dun wanna rmb.. so shall not sae tt.. bt i noe.. at least they all care for me.. :)

1st dae of sch.. :p great.. i miss everione.. :p went to our site.. juz beside studio.. haha.. had dis week man.. hol on tue n thu.. muz well dun go everidae? wahaha..

tml gems.. omg!! HELP ME!! i cant get into wat i wanna go.. n i got into PRINCIPLE OF WEB DESIGN!! argh!!

sth to share.. :p

每个人都有自己喜与不喜欢的人。

你不需要勉强自己去讨好每个人。

尽管做你想做的事，

只要你心里知道你的决定是对的，

将来就不会因为今天的决定而后悔

~fernny~

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2005-10-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

walking down esplanade.. to merlion park.. to fullerton.. back to esplanade...
n i'm alone.. all alone.. with tears... sit by e' river.. thinkin of e' memories we had.. all i can sae is.. i'm hurt...

well..

2005-10-07T17:38:00.000+08:00

y everione got it.. bt i didn.. oh well.. tt's fate ba.. i hv my hol back.. time for more swims i think.. :p *thinkin on e' brighter side*

i'm bored!! was locked at hm e' whole of ydae n 2dae.. bt dear is bringin mi out later for dinner.. haha.. :p so.. nvm..

i miss dear..
getting fatter.. dear brought mi for supper again!! not ice cream dis time.. bt it's satay!! oh my!! can c e' meat n fats fr e' satay growin on my stomach.. gettin bigger n bigger.. like a swimin float!!

promised julie to go sentosa dis sun.. haha.. :p time to meet up wif them again!! sc n jr.. :p oh my.. gettin darker liao!!

managed to finish my theory paper.. yippy!!

feel so loneli suddenli.. i'm no longer e' usual wanfern.. tryin to hide.. escape fr everithg.. i cant face all e' reality.. i dun.. i dun wan... stayin at hm.. hidin under e' blanket cryin doesn help! y is life so unfair.. they all live a much better life den me.. it's so unfair!! all dis r killin me.. i'm tire.. can someone plz take mi away.. away fr dis scary and fearful place......

..promise not to leave me please..

..promise u'll always be there for me..

..promise u'll always be with me..

~fernny~

hurt.

2005-10-06T03:56:00.000+08:00

hurt..
gastric is comin back.. is there ani solution which i no need to eat medicine n yet my gastric can go away?
quarrel.. no more plz..
gastric... go away plz..
troubles.. get lost.....
gossips....... STOP IT!!

well.. everithg was over..
there's a lot for mi to sae.. bt i choose not to.. it's all over.... :p tml will be a better dae i hope..

hol.. juz woke up.. dear forgot to wake me up n he fell aslp... :p theory paper is not finish.. n fri is e' submission.. die liao lar.. cable for cam is not wrkin.. n i had to take pics for my case study.. die liao lar.. oh ya..

happi b'dae fang.. :p enjoy ur dae.. ;p stay happi always.. :) sMiLe

chalet was fun.. in e' pool.. kana chase by security..
went playground wif rain n jazz was marvellous.. i enjoy.. cycle all e' way there.. e' playground wif new thgs.. 3 of us look like 3 yrs old kids sia.. haha.. :p swing... n e' toilet bowl seat.. haha.. :p spider web.. blah blah..
bt i fall sick e' 2nd nite.. :( bt still i had lotsa fun.. :p esp on e' bed wif rain n jazz.. STUPID!!
beach wif them n mumpheng.. lookin at e' sea.. thunder... slp by e' pool... cooling!!

tob's b'dae chalet.. didn manage to go.. it's too last min lar.. so soli bro.. we shall meet up soon.. n u'll hv a gd scoldin fr me.. wahaha.. :p ani.. u had grown up for another yr.. GROW UP PLEASE!! n seriously go n get me a sister-in-law... wahaha.. :p

i missed DE chalet too.. forgot all abt it.. promise to go down.. bt i didn.. opps.. n they called n scold mi.. :'(

i went for a swim ydae.. became darker liao..
think i spend a lot dis few daes for shoppin.. omg!!!!!!!! n i bought myself a new pair of slippers.. bt e' pair i like.. no more stock.. NO MORE STOCK IN ANY OTHER OUTLET!! so sad... :'(

well.. end for e' dae.. shall fix a dae n bomb everithg out to fishy n sc soon.... :p wahaha.. :p

~fernny~ life will not be complete without u..

happi..

2005-09-26T19:37:00.000+08:00

i'm happi.. v v happi.. bt i kinda sick now.. :'(

had my hair cut.. went to REDS instead dis time.. not a bad one.. i shall go back to him.. :p met dear after tt.. shop a while b4 goin to my student hse.. :p

saw anson n xueting at bugis.. :p sooo long nv c them liao.. no change.. haaha.. :p

it'd been 6 mths liao.. time passes sooooo fast.. haha.. :p

dear bought mi to sentosa last sat.. had a great time.. cable car.. sky tower.. we spent a lot.. a lot of $$.. a lot of time together.. :p so.. for dinner..we had to save up.. n we shared a sandwich.. haha.. :p

time passes sooooooo fast.. TIRE!!!! bt i managed to watch my musical fountain.. wahaha.. :p sooo nice.. words juz cant describe how happi i am.. bt dear as usual.. pamper mi too much le..!! i got watever i wan.. bt still.. dear.. dun pamper mi too much leh..

dear was forced to take pics again.. haha.. :p

crit was over.. sch sem come to an end.. hol finally.. bt gonna go back sch for microstation wrkshop tml n wed.. chalet fr wed till fri.. shld i go DE chalet next mon till wed?? shld i? still dunno leh!!!!

crit was alrite i think.. shld i redo? I DUNNO!! argh!!

went to eat sushi n steamboat wif rainie n dennis.. had a great time.. haha.. sooo fun eatin tt awful ice.. haha.. took pic.. haha.. shall scan liao den upload n show u all.. FUNNY!!

i miss dear.. i miss sc n fishy.. i miss jr, gs.... n mani mani more..

dinner time.. bye all..

~fernny~ take care all..

feel so scare.

2005-09-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

i feel so scared suddenli.. it's so competitive.. i cant imagine so mani changed.. they r juz so self fish.. wat they care r themselves.. there r juz soo mani fake ppl ard mi n i dunno hu to trust.. ppl livin wif mask.. gd fren in front.. back stabber at e' back.. it's so fake.. i oso dunno how to describe.. suddenli i dunno wat i need to do.. i feel so lost.. dunno wat i gonna do.. juz wish to finish my presentation tml n meet up wif sc n fisshy.. wahaha.. i miss u 2 soo much..u 2 hv to hear mi complain again.. poor u.. :p wahaha.. *evil laugh*

proj finalli ended!! wahaha.. *clap* bt i think i gonna re do.. everione was given a chance to redo everithg durin e' hol.. shld i?
i hv no feel for dis proj. i think i'll get a bad marks.. cuz.. i didn put ani effort on dis proj i admit.. haiz... :(
shld i join vivocity? shld i? ani comments? i dunno.. i'm confused.. next fri is e' deadline for vivocity.. bt i'm hvin chalet next wed till fri.. argh.. i'm confused!!!
hol=no hol... argh.. proj again.. theory paper as hol hw.. re do for interior 'x'scape.. blah blah... n FOT camp comin up too..

stomachache!! HELP ME!! haiz.. i miss dear soo much... bt i had to prepare my speech for tml...

lantern festival.. wahaha.. dear promise to play lantern.. in e' end..we went west coast to c ppl play wif lantern.. wahaha.. :p bt i enjoy tt.. :p

went out ydae wif mummy.. bought a lot of thgs.. wahaha.. jealous?

1st dae of presentation.. wow!! e' place is juz so cosy.. so my concept.. "LOUNGE' wahaha.. :p e' seatings.. soo comfortable.. i realli fell aslp.. shall upload e' pic later.. :p well.. time to call dear liao.. bye all.. dun miss mi.. :p

~fernny~ take care my frenz.. *LIVE LIKE URSELF*

i'm tire..

2005-09-08T08:19:00.000+08:00

i'm tire.. realli tire... i need to slp.. i'm tire of e' proj too.. i oso dunno wat i need to do!!!!!! argh!! can someone tell me?

take away my tireness.. take away my laziness.. i dun wan them.. i need to focus!!! i juz woke up.. bt seems like.. i need slp again!! omg omg omg!! can die sia.. HELP ME!!

2dae cannot slack.. NOT AT ALL.. till e' last dae of proj.. CANNOT SLACK!! 8 more daes to submission liao.. die liao le.... argh!!

i miss dear so much.. we could hardli meet up dis 8 daes... haiz...

~fernny~ jia you wor.. we can do it.. i think.. :p

haha..

2005-09-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

dam sian!!! HELP ME!! layout almost done? think so ba.. hopefully.. tml go find mr steven ask for opinion 1st.. :p i hv no idea!! 2dae construction details r all CRAP!! i oso hv no idea wat i'm drawin.. i'm doin... it's all nonsense.. i'm slpin almsot everidae n not doin my thgs.. help me!! i can feel e' stress..

laziness plz stay away fr me.. can?? dun come.. i'm not ur home!!

flu.. wan some mucus? wahaha.. :p i cant breath!! help me!!

i'm gettin fatter n fatter liao.. how how how? help me again!!! gotta go swimmin.. runnin durin my hols liao le.. n i swear!!

haven meet dear for dunno how mani daes liao.. miss him.. :(

i wanna watch a lot of movies!!!! bt i cant.. proj muz muz come 1st.. 2 weeks more.. 15 daes more.. omg omg omg.. n i haven even finalise my layout.. can die sia.. help me!!!! i'm outta ideas!! feel so guilty seein ppl so hardworkin.. plz plz plz.. take away my laziness!!!!!!!! argh!!

jiu ming ar.. sat is a long dae for me.. :'( gotta go 2 student hse.. haiz...

watchin superstar.. wahaha.. :p nice nice.. hu'll win? kelly? weilian?

i'm sooo happi now.. :)
i'm soooo stress now... well.. i stress.. bt happi of wat dear had juz saed.. haha. :p
well.. i'm easy to satisfy.. :p

well.. ppl.. 2 more weeks to freedom.. n i can go SHOPPING!!

~fernny~ omg omg omg!! proj time? nope.. it's restin time!!!!

dam sian...

2005-08-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

dam sian.. i didn do anithg for my proj.. can u imagine.. well well well.. gotta go start on my layout soon.. feel soooo soo sooooo guilty...

i watched charlie n e' choco factory.. wahaha.. :p can u imagine livin in a hse made of choco.. yum.. i love it man.. :p lollipop trees... choco fountain n waterfall... no.. it shld be chocofall.. yum yum yum...

dear came wif my fav ice cream moon cake.. yum yum.. die liao le lar.. fat liao le!!! :(

izzit true tt u can onli choose between ur family, ur fren or ur boy? oh no.. i'm gettin crazy..
she's not e' one i know.. nope.. not at all..

i feel so empty.. feel so lost suddenli... i juz cant sae it in words...

well.. tt's mi n dear...

~fernny~ sian sian life = NO LIFE!!! wen is hol comin? 3 more weeks to submission!!
HELP!! wrkin time..

pic time..

2005-08-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

wen ppl hvin interim..w e watch movie..

it's us.. :p

usual jazz hu like to disturb!!

we girls... wahaha.. :)

hu's teeth is better? whiter?

jazz saes i look diff... wahaha.. -_- diaozzz..

after language test.. wif jazz waitin for e' rest..

after dunno how long.. we took train again.. :p wahaha.. :)

haha..

2005-08-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

haha.. miss mi? sian sian sian.. project all e' way;.. not enough slp.. no project.. den watch vcd.. meet up wif dear... haiyo... tire sia.. not enough slp sia.. everidae late for sch.. wat e'..

interim dis week.. dam sian.. they start fr e' back.. n i'm reg no. 6.. wait till siao.. i'm e' last to present 2dae.. lucky sia.. it's a v v v v fast one... last few daes of interim.. watch movie at lib.. wahaha.. stupid sia.. realli nth to do lor.. all my thgs wif lects.. nth to do liao.. watched inside e' sea or sth like tt lar.. finalli gotta watch e' movie.. it's a nice movie..

wahaha.. i'm so happi ydae.. although i'm v v v tire.. bt i enjoy takin train wif dear... :p it's been dunno how mani mths we took train together.. *memories* we took a train fr boon lay to novena.. wahaha... :p no more cars.. no more lookin out e' windows alone.. wahaha.. :p e' feelins r juz diff.. :p

tire.. i'm so tire.. shall go slp soon...
stomach cramp.. aunty visit.. :'( argh.. wat e'..
soo mani thgs happened.. i oso dunno how to start.. thgs r juz not rite..
sian.. tml dinner muz settle alone.. dear got dinner...

quarrels.. wat can u sae abt tt? some couples will always hv quarrels.. some will nv... haiz.. y? is becuz i'm not understandin? or wat? quarrel of? 3rd party??? or wat?? haiz.. wat tokin me? i dunno... juzz dunno y? i hate tt.. can we juz not quarrel for a week? or forever??? *cries* *heartpain*

haiz.. watever.. headache.. gastric... stomach camp.... argh.. it's killin me... HELP ME!! i can take it no more.. HELP ME!! wat medicine shld i eat? if eat headache.. i muz gv up gastric n stomach.. gastric.. i muz gv up e' other 2.. n so to stomach cramp... wat shld i eat? no panadol plz... it's not helpin...!!!

watever.. best solution came out... SLEEP n DUN EAT ANY MEDICINE!!

~fernny~ take care ppl.. will not hv time to blog for 3 weeks be.. or seldom will update.. so.. DUN MISS ME WOR.. wahaha.. :p take care..

hurt...

2005-08-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

hurt.. quarrel wif sis.. argh.. angry!! hurt!! tears almost flow down.. bt i manage to stop it.. bt..... wen daddy came n started to scold ME.. i juz cant control my tears.. juz like a tap... maybe i'm wrong.. bt i think she too.. is wrong..bt daddy sort of blame me.. n scolded mi.. w/o askin.. w/o knowin wat's happenin.. he scolded me.. at tt moment.. i'm lost.. totalli speechless.. totalli lost.. i oso dunno wat i wanna do.. wat i'm gonna do.. tears juz flow down.. i can do nth.. i'm her daughter too.. bt................ y? it's soooo unfair...

wat if 1 dae.. i leave dis world? will anione miss mi?? argh..............

i need a break.. stress is overcomin me.. i need to rest.. i'm hurtin myself.. i started to hv illision of mani thgs.. no.. i cant let stress overcome me..

i'm not as strong as u guys think... not at all... i feel soo weak tt i'll leave n gv up soon... v soon..

i cant continue wif my wrk.. sth is wrong.. i oso dunno how to describe it.. juz like.. so mani thgs happened to me out of a sudden.. i realli hv no idea wat i wanna do.. seems like someone is conquerin me.. orderin mi to do sth else.. i cantt concentrate on everithg.. includin my project... i haven realli finish my site analysis.. wat e'.. it shld be finished by last week.. n now.. i'm still here.. concept.. new concept is out.. bt none of my layout is out yet..

gastric.. well nth new.. as usual... is there anione out there care for me? NOPE!! not at all....

~fernny~ a world wif no love.. no care...

2005-08-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

speechless... timeless......... *dead*

m i happi? m i realli happi?

i almost broke into tears durin lect 2dae.. i cant take it animore.. m i tt strong?
i'm a cry baby... i like to cry.. to let out everithg..
i think n think n think.. y is there love? argh.. headache!!!! y is there ppl gettin out of ur life n wanna come back again.. no way man... there'll be a reason y someone will get out of ur life.. no matter how close u wanna be after gettin back.. e' feelin will be diff.. totalli diff..

watever he said.. it's realli like a knife had pierce into my heart.. so painful.. u cant stop e' pain.. e' tears flowin down my cheecks..

well.. tell u guys sth happi.. sth i'm v proud of.. i'm proud of my grp.. HEAVENED!! woo~Hoo~.. got back our results.. all of us got all A!! can u guys imagine? all 4 of us get 4As.. i got 2As n 2A+.. realli.. like our grp name.. it's like.. HEAVEN!! i cant imagine tt.... is like a miracle to us sia.. we manage to finish everithg in like.. 3 daes 2 nites w/o much slpin.. all our hard wrk realli paid off..

had lunch wif rainie, juan they all.. had lotsa fun.. wahaha.. soooo funny.. at least they brighten up my dae... :p

n now.. is.. photo time.. :p

my grp... heavened now present to u our concept.. 'serenity' wahaha.. :p

our model..

printing panel.. sooo stress... wahaha.. :p

fotos

2005-08-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

guess how much.. guess correctli.. i'll gv it all to u.. :p

CADP lesson is a lesson to teach u how to take nice pic.. :p

fishy, sc n me.. :p

farewell for sharon n claz gatherin.. miss them... :p

argh..

2005-08-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

argh......... y m i such a cry baby????? argh.. i hate tt..
i cry wen i'm stress.. i cry wen i'm unhappy.. i cry wen i sad.. i can cry of nth oso....

i hv no idea.. not at all... quarrels.. no more plz.. stay away fr me plz... it's hurt... heart pain.. tot he'll msg mi or wat.. bt nope.. maybe i'm wrong.. bt i think both of us were in e' wrong..
i hate tt......

dun think i can take it animore.. no more... haiz.. i hv no idea...

plz plz.... let me die................................................. it's such a selfish act... :'( bt i feel so breathless now.. sooo pain.. stop my pain plz.............................

confused..

2005-08-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

i'm confused.. saw francis 2dae.. he told mi a lot of thgs.. has he changed? shld i trust him? seriousli speakin.. i still hv no trust on him.. he cheated me.. he lied to me.. tell mi stories.. no way man.. i cant be soft hearted.. wat had past had already past..
ming's bro called me 2dae.. he found sth n wanna pass it to me.. shld i go get it? or shld i juz let it go? it'd already been yrss...

dear i miss u..............................

dun u think i'm livin in dis lifeless world?? nope.. shld be.. i think i hv no live.. everidae project project n project.. kinda of sick of it.. like wat rainie had said.. wat we r doin r juz e' same as e' previous project.. same as all e' project we did.. site analysis, layout, plantin plan.. blah blah... argh... e' onli hol for mi is juz term break.. dun u guys think i hv no life? argh............
project.... wrk load is gettin more n more.. lesser time for more wrk load.. can die sia.. slpless nite again at last week of project? or even earlier?
site analysis shld be finish by last week.. bt.. i'm still doin it.. wat e' hell.. modern retro my concept? or rejuvenent? argh.... dunno lar..

can someone help me? i dun think i can make it animore... wat if one dae i die? i spent my whole afternoon readin all e' letters i kept.. memories.. *cries* i juz cant believe tt some of my frenz already left me..
readin e' letters gv mi back more memories.. n at least wen 1 dae i leave.. i noe e' memories will follow me..

y is there so mani illness? y is there so mani organs? y cant they juz tell mi wat happened? wif juz 1 scan...cramp.. is now part of my life.. vomit too... i'm feelin weaker n weaker everidae.. human wif a mask? m i? hu noes.. u nv noe wen i'm havin e' pain...n when e' pain is comin..

~fernny~ cramp...................................

haiz..

2005-08-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

no mood to cont wif my project.. didn do anithg... :'(
lighting plan not wif me... sian,, dunno wat to do suddenli.... so lost.. n tt's end of myy project.. i didn do... :'( argh.. wanna finish my site analysis.. bt... didn touch at all... :'(

gastric... irritating.. hate tt.. i dun wan pain.. i dun wan medication.. all i wan is a peaceful live.......

went to c fireworks ydae.. nth special actualli.. bt i enjoy e' time wif dear.. :p had dinner at newton.. yum.. e' fishball.. yum. love it... :p

well.. it's onli 9.. bt i think i'm gonna slp soon.. i'm tire.. *headache* i need a rest badli.. i week break is realli not enough.. it's short..............................

fireworks tml.. 11.59.. too late.. dear had to wrk e' next dae.. dun think goin to c liao... :p

~fernny~ tire..... tire......... tire..............

wat e'...

2005-08-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

argh.. wat a dae..

someone juz dun fit to be a christian... well well well.. it's his blog.. i hv no rite to comments.. bt.. i realli think it's such a disgrace of bein a christian..n not onli me.. mani others there think soo too..

NOT ENOUGH SLP!! did nth in sch... wahaha.. :p lazy is e' onli word tt can describe me now.. wahahahaha.. :p well.. at least i admit.. :p
was doin my site analysis juz now.. i think i'll change to site 1.. should i? haiz.. confused... cuz i think there's too mani diff entrance n exit in site 2 liao.. kinda difficult to do.. n e' railin.. liew.. muz change liao lar.. realli v 80s lor.. cannot stand it.. bt i cant change e' railin of e' whole buildin.. *headache sia* at least for site 1.. i noe it's a study n waitin area.. whereas for site 2.. it's juz a 'gatherin' area.. argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! confused..
retro my next concept? wahaha.. shall consider it leh.. tt place realli look 80s to me..

ydae.. presentation.. well.. kinda ok.. site visit.. haiz.. met dear after tt.. :p makan.. forgot all abt my hp. didn go repair.. wahaha.. :p wanna go watch movie de.. bt after reachin hm.. lazy to go out again..w ahaaha.. :p n dear dear slp all e' way n i hv no place to slp!! argh... :p

noe wat.. my mummy thinks her hp is too dirty n soak it in e' water for a nite.. wahaha.. :p n now e' screen of her hp.. there's water wif bubbles.. wahaha.. :p haiyo.. tt's my mum.. not e' 1st time she wash phone liao.. tt time wash hse phone.. now hp.. wat's next..wahaha.. well.. tt's mummy.. :p

sian.. project start liao.. NOT ENOUGH BREAK!! equal period of time.. a bigger site.. lesser info given.. individual wrk.. wat e' hell..
all dis means.. NO TIME TO SLACK.. no time to go out.. lesser time for shoppin... lesser time for a lot a lot of thgs... haiz........

i miss dear..

i wanna watch bewitched.. n e' island....

well well wel.. time to hv some wrk done.. time for some bedtime stories liao.. wahaha.. :p

~fernny~

claz gathering..

2005-08-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

i'm happi.. i meet them again.. after.. dunno how mani weeks.. or mths.. haha.. i'm sooo happi.. :p

although swensen again.. bt i enjoy it a lot a lot.. :p time passes soooo fast.. haiz.. nvm.. we shall hv another gatherin soon ba... :p n julie.. he promise to come for e' next gatherin.. wahaha.. :p

catchin up wif them.. eatin.. bt it's too late.. nv watch movie in e' end.. soli guys.. :p some other dae i think... :p i enjoyed....

tob told mi sth.. n i agree to it too.. actualli i agreed to it long ago... great minds think a like.. rite.. :p wahaha.. :p well.. well.. well............

aloy is goin NS soon.. tob too.. sian.. hardli meet liao. like zhuang.. idiot!! dun even reply me!!!!!!

well well well...... late liao.. gotta go slp liao le lar.. tml got presentation.......!!!!!!

~fernny~ i enjoyed myself.. realli realli.. :p

love..

2005-07-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

love is blind.. do u believe? watever.. NONSENSE TIME AGAIN.. wahaha.. :p
dam sian.. sch reopen tml.. can u believe... HOLIDAY HAD ENDED!! argh... it means.. project again... argh...... n dis time rnd.. our site will be at e' business sch.. sian.. gotta climb tt hill again.. argh.....

watever.. let's c.. is it a pair wrk or? watever.. not excited at all.. gettin sick of sch.. i hate to travel.. argh... dam sian.. how i wish i got e' $$ n buy a car n hire a chauffeur... wahaha... well.. stop dreaming *bishhh*

i miss dear... i miss everione..

feel so loneli suddenli.. i hate to be alone.. i hate darkness.. feel so scared.. so frighten suddenli.. feel like cryin..

i hate dis feelin.. hate tt.. argh!!! :'( how i wish he's beside mi....

well.. i hv to be more independent..

~fernny~

haha..

2005-07-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

it's been dunno how long i blog liao.. wahaha.. :p miss mi? watever..

project is finalli over liao le!!!! sooo happi... hate e' project actualli.. esp someone.. made us change our final layout within.... 3 daes!! wat e'... watever.. it's all over..

hol now.. wahaha.. :p bt it's onli 1 week.. argh!! bt within dis week.. i went to k box twice liao.. sooo chor.. no $$ liao le lar.. muz save $$ liao le!!

alvin n dennis was soo funny.. they act like super star.. e' judges.. watever use mid voice.. now use head voice.. wat e'..

went k lunch wif jazz, rain n juan 2dae.. sooo high.. sooo fun.. esp at e' back!! bth sia.. n can u guys imagine.. each of us pay onli 4.30?? wahaha..... jealous? wahaha.. nonsense.. well.. as usual..

i miss nanny.. seems like he's quite bz dis few daes..

a lot a lot of thgs happened.. i oso dunno how to sae.. soo mani ppl changed.. i hate tt.. it's sad to c my frenz change... stop smokin!!!!!!!!!! ah beng n ah lian realli tt gd to be? R U MAD!!!!!!! I HATE YOU BEHAVING LIKE THAT!!

~fernny~ take care ppl..

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2005-07-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

all e' unhappi thgs happened so suddenli.. I NEED A BREAK.. seriousli speakin.. i need a break....

zhongjie had left us.. *may god bless him*
tot dear was jokin wif mi.. bt it's true.. though not close wif him.. bt still.. i realli feel sad abt it.. esp wen dear discribe how he left us...... bt after all.. hope he'll rest in peace..

dear is sad.. v v sad.. bt i juz dunno how to console him.. :'(

life.. u'll nv noe wat happened tml.. or even e' next moment..

read e' newspaper 2dae.. seems like ppl die earlier n earlier.. it's all becuz of accident.. u ppl muz die??? i hate e' feeling.. :'(

~fernny~ god bless..

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2005-07-08T02:01:00.000+08:00

i'm feelin weaker n weaker.. :'(
it's so difficult to breath now.. feel like dyin.. gastric pain.. chest pain.. everiwhere pain.......
my nose is bleedin.. n it's sooo pain oso.. i realli feel like dyin soon..
seriousli speakin.. i'm scared.. realli realli.. e' feelin is juz diff fr last time.. i'm realli afraid tt i'll leave dis place soon.. v soon......................................................................

i miss dear........... i miss everione suddenli..

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2005-07-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

i noe u all care.. bt.. bo biam..
i oso wanna slp.. bt.. I CANT!!!
gastric pain.. :'( it's realli hurts.. i realli reali canot take it animore.. :'( HELP ME!!

project project n project.. stop.. i dun wan animore project.. i hate projects..!!! :'(
so mani thgs happened.. i cried n cried n cried.. i cant imagine my tears r like e' runnin water tap.. flow non stop.. argh... watever.. ppl.. i'm alrite.. thanx for bein there ydae.. :p

i miss dear so much.. dunno wen den can meet again.. i'm juz hv to concentrate on my project 1st.. :'( bt watever.. realli appreciate it juz now wen u pei me..

tears flow down wen i'm listenin to e' song.. 'hao xiang ni' i oso dunno wat i wanna do.. feel so helpless now.. :'( realli feel soooo much better after cryin.. lettin everithg out.. n thanx eugene n jazz for lendin ur ears.. :p realli realli appreciate a lot a lot.. i realli feel much better now..

~fernny~

:'(

2005-06-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

i'm sick.. been vomitin since ydae mornin.. i hate dis feelin... realli hate tt... :'( was forced to go n c e' doc in e' afternoon.. hate tt.. :'(

ydae was terrible.. suppose to meet shuk they all at 10. bt i couldn wake up.. not feelin tt well liao.. so meet later.. reach sch.. vomieted.. had some presentation thg.. den to FC1.. vomited again.. had some fruits.. vomited again.. everithg juz couldn get into my stomach.. :'( had some project discussion.. bth.. been goin in n out of e' toilet.. had e' feelin of vomitin.. went off earli... :'( dear came.. bt i slp.. went for dinner at seoul garden.. no appetite.. vomit again.. sick of toilet sia.. :'(

didn go sch 2dae.. i hate e' feelin of bein sick..... argh.. vomit again again n again.. dear came n force mi to c doctor.. :'( sob sob.. n i slp tro e' afternoon.. feelin better.. bt now.. again.. gastric pain.. feel like vomitin again.. i need to slp now.. bt i cant.. still doin my plantin plan.... argh.. help me!! n now.. dear is sick too.. y everione is sick now.....

~fernny~ sick sick n sick!!!!!!! :'(

argh......

2005-06-29T01:45:00.000+08:00

bth now... doin case study.. realli bth liao le lar!! i think i'm sick now.. my head is spinning... argh.. i hate e' feelin.. been sneezin non stop.. block nose.. argh!!! super duper hot now.. not cold lor...!!!!!!!! argh.. i realli hate dis feelin.. :'( a panadol n time to slp liao.. nite all.. :p

~fernny~ time to slp..

hey hey..

2005-06-26T18:07:00.000+08:00

wahaha... :p i watched Initial D liao.. wahaha.. :p bt still.. i prefer e' cartoon version.. haha.. :p there's so so so mani ppl..

my hp spoilt.. no display.. den dear sent mi to repair after project meetin.. oh ya.. :p all 4 of us went to buy 4D.. haha.. :p each pick a no. n we came out wif **** haha.. :p soo funny.. was a short meetin.. cuz everione was tire.. so men shuk went walk ard.. to kill time.. cuz shuk leavin at 4.. dear come n fetch mi at 4.. while habib n rainie go wrk.. went to centre pt to make my hp wif dear.. after tt.. went to find rainie n had ice cream.. yum yum.. :p went sc to look for alice.. n saw sharon there too.. haha.. :p

dear n me went to buy ticket for Initial D.. n buy dinner back for my family.. n i slp a while b4 goin for movie.. cuz dam tire.. :p it's soo soo sooooo crowded there.. n e' movie onli starts at 12.45.. wat e'.. waited sooo long.. it shld start at 12.10 de lor.. argh...... watever.. not a bad show lar.. bt realli.. i still prefer e' cartoon version of initial D!!! :p went to hv supper cuz dear is hungry.. den hm sweet hm.... :p a v v v tire nite.. bt woke up earli in e' mornin.. not enough slp!! well..time to con't wif my project liao.. take care all.. :p

~fernny~

haiz..

2005-06-22T18:19:00.000+08:00

i'm sooo tire.. i think i'll collapse 1 dae.. someone plz help mi...

TOBY IS BACK.. n ALOY TOO... time to chill out wif them n zhuang again.. :p stupid toby n me was plannin to make zhuang drunk again.. wahaha.. *evil laugh* bt realli hope to c them soon.. bt too bad.. i'm still bz wif my project..haiz...

~fernny~ take care peepz..

help!!

2005-06-20T03:01:00.000+08:00

rain rain rain.. listenin to e' rhythm of e' rain...
argh.. it's 3.. n i'm still awake.. it's all becuz of last min wrk.. :'( *pull ears*.. i'd learn my lesson..

not feelin v well now.. feel giddy n headache...
vomited twice.. eeyucks.. n i'm feelin hungry n giddy now...

dun hv e' mood to wrk.. n stupid is tt..
i dun even noe wat i'm doin for e' model..
wat time we r meetin tml...
dunno wat time is e' submission..
dunno wat to submit..

i can feel e' stress.. it's nearer n nearer.. 1 more mth to submission.. how can i survive??

I NEED A BREAK!! break fr everithg..
n thnx to dear for bringin mi to diff beaches to relax.. :) realli appreciate it.. :)
time to slp.. nite all..

~fernny~ tire!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha..

2005-06-13T12:31:00.000+08:00

happi b'dae habib.. aha.. went to his celebration ydae nite.. was late.. haha.. cuz i went to buy his present.. :p den is like.. i hv no idea where's e' shop.. find n find n find.. so cute.. e' monkey.. wif e' swingin monkey sound.. i made e' monkey myself de ok... stuff e' cotton inside all tt.. soo fun.. den choose e' clothes.. den got a heart wif a msg.. n e' monkey's name is habibulla..
did 1 for dear oso.. did e' pig de.. sooo cute.. wif a msg on it oso.. n we name e' piglet.. cuz we realli hv no idea wat name to gv her.. it's a her ok.. :p it's a girl.. cuz she's wearin PINK!!

actualli wanna do jambo for dear de.. e' jambo v v cute lor.. was wonderin jambo wearin e' surgeon's uniform.. wif e' surgeon's mask.. wahaha.. :p wahahahahahahahaha.... cute rite... :p bt too bad.. i'm kinda broke now lar.. so.. u noe u noe..

dear came to fetch mi after tt.. n he sae mi waste $$ sob sob.. :'( bt.. watever.. hope he'll like e' pig.. haha.. n he gotta take care of her forever... haha.. :p

some of e' pic in studio last fri.. a v mini celebration for habib.. :p stupid.. habib told mi.. he feel so gd bein 18 liao.. -_-'' diaozz..

habib, me n his cake.. yum yummmm...

e' gang......................... haha.. :p

forever... actin stupid... opps..

~fernny~ happi always..

2005-06-12T16:40:00.000+08:00

got so stress up suddenli.. :'( feel so lost now.. i oso dunno wat i wanna do?
gastric.. headache.. backache r all comin back.. HELP ME!! there's no where i can go now...

~fernny~ may look happi.. bt.. m 1?

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2005-06-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

i'm confused.. i'm totalli lost.. i oso dunno wat i wanna do.. if his mentality already set there.. i had nth to sae.. nth else i can do.. cryin doesn help at all!!

listenin to e' most familar tone.. realli wanna pick up.. bt.. soli.. i think i still need some time to cool down...

all e' thgs r too hurtful.. i'm tryin my best to hold back.. bt i cant.. i juz cant control my tears..

quan shi jie de ren ke yi bu xiang xin wo...
ke shi zhi you ni bu neng bu xiang xin wo....

pic of e' dae..

2005-06-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

our hands... bt i prefer e' ah gong n ah ma in front.. haha.. :p

doin nth.. found tt balloon flower.. so took wif tt.. *in club hse*

miss mi

2005-06-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

aha aha.. :p it'd been 1 week i last blog liao.. miss mi?

1st dae of sch..
can u guys imagine.. i'm already in my yr 2.. 1st dae of sch.. haha.. nth special to me.. seems like.. it's realli nth lor.. juz cant imagine how i pass my yr 1.. haha.. watever.. 1st dae.. had CADP.. sooo sian.. den went mm lab for photoshop lesson by mr steven.. haha.. he got a charmin eyes.. bt.. plz.. DUN C HIS BODY BUILD.. wahaha.. :p opps.. esp his stomach.. haha.. :p opps.. :x was at mm lab takin foro all e' way...

mr tay let us off early.. haha.. :p bt dear can onli pick mi up at 5.. so i waited at club hse for 2 hrs... tok tok n tok.. haha.. :p

on tue..
lesson fr 8-5.. shag.. had gems at 8.. sooo tire.. had a brief on wat to do durin lect den off we go.. lunch n den to our site.. whole claz took e' same bus lor.. n e' bus was like.. mostli our claz de student.. n so qiao is tt.. dear called mi.. he's behind e' bus.. i alighted at e' next bus stop n he drove mi, rainie n jingfang there.. sooooo tire.. sooooooo hot!!!!! gonnna die.. n juz hate someone!!!!!!! note.. HATE!! slack ard at harbour front.. den hm sweet hm..

wed..
had lect for onli 10-12.. after tt.. slack slack to kill time.. cuz tuition onli starts at 3.. so.. went club hse slack.. n took pic.. v cam.. blah blah..
tuition.. almost fall aslp.. dam dam dam tire.. went orchard to find da jie n er jie.. shop ard.. den to bugis.. had my fav wan ton mee.. yum yum... :p den hm sweet hm... dear came to pass mi dumplin his daddy made.. soo mani lor... bt it's nice i muz sae.. :p thanx dear..

thu..
a super long dae for mi.. lesson fr 8-5 again... dam dam shag lor.. no energy to discuss project n had to go co op for coffee time.. bt.. NO USE!! i think i need red bull next time... after sch.. went to meet fishy they all.. had dinner at PS to celebrate her b'dae.. n 6 of us went opp to had her b'dae cake cut.. yum yum.. it's nice... love e' cake.. :p ppl.. i had a great time.. :p realli realli.. i think u guys oso rite... time passes soooo fast.. we had to go hm.. cuz tml got sch.. haiz.. nvm.. we can always come out another time rite.. :p drop off wif sc at novena.. n as usual.. we had tons n tons of thgs to sae.. non stop.. haha.. :p so. in e' end i oso reach hm quite late.. bt it's nice to c ber joinin us.. :p
at hm.. celebrated blu's b'dae.. haha.. happi b'dae blu.. although he like.. older liao le.. bt.. NO!! he's still a baby to us.. :p

fri..
happi b'dae fishy.. hope u enjoyed urself.. :p all e' best n may all ur wishes come true.. :p

sch.. dam sian.. project discussion.. den went off for tuition.. den hm sweet hm.. went to makan wif dear den PC show.. haha.. stupid.. we didn noe e' pc show is till 8pm onli.. n we reach there ard 8+.. luckily it extended to 8.30.. haiz.. watever.. den we went ard.. lookin for petrol station.. kinda stupid actualli.. fr expo to marine parade.. ahaha.. :p den went to.. shh.. dun wanna sae liao le... :p had a great nite watchin all e' stars n planes.. i juz love e' sea... kallang to hv mac.. haha.. sooo mani cars there.. esp e' WRX.. sooo nice..

sat..
went back to site.. den to habour front to discuss.. den hm sweet hm.. had a nap n i didn noe dear came liao.. haha.. :p he drove mi to aunt hse n pass her sth n we went compass pt to walk walk.. :p n there.. we made hand wax.. haha.. it reminds mi of hse of wax lor.. argh... actualli dun wanna do de.. in e' end.. still i did.. :p went hm for dinner den went suntec walk walk.. er jie seems sad sad.. so we went to buy her choco.. :p so sweet of mi rite.. haha.. ya.. i noe i noe.. :p

sun..
had mac for breakfast.. yum yum!!! seems like dis week.. DAM SINFUL!!!!!! eat eat n eat.... die liao le lar... some more.. had curry for dinner.. soo soo sooooo SINFUL!!!!! argh.. haiz..

~fernny~ take care ppl.. :p

dear is sick...

2005-05-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

dear is sick.. poor dear... fever.. blah blah.. bt nvm.. he got some suprise ai xin dinner rite.. haha.. :p n herbal tea fr mummy.. dinner n hebal tea rite to his footstep ok.. *envy?? too bad.. cuz he's my darlin.. haha.. :p bt he dun believe i cook de.. sooo sad.. :'(

sian.. tml sch start liao.. 1st lesson.. photoshop sia.. soooo soosoooo sian.. bt we gonna meeet leslie for lunch.. :p
gotta go clear my hp de pic liao le.. cuz tml is foto time again... :p

sat 28/5
went to meet up wif leslie, clement, weesoon n some freshies ydae.. den shuk n raine they all came.. walk ard.. got free coke n candy floss.. n rainie pull mi go take candy floss makan.. yum yum.. after tt.. pei rainie go art museum interview n both of us went bugis walk walk while e' rest stayed at orchard.. walk n walk n walk.. den dear, jeffery n zhongjie came to join.. :p on our way to makan.. dear's car broke down.. luckily it was at a petrol station.. n we waited for abt an hr.. went tiong bahru makan fish n chip after tt.. sent rainie hm.. jeffery n zhongjie went hm too.. n dear came my hse... he is sick!!!!

~fernny~ get well soon dear..

well well well...

2005-05-27T18:34:00.000+08:00

well well well.... well well well...
wahaha.. :p it'd been dunno how long i updated dis... miss mi?

mointor SPOILT!!!! burnt...
changed my mointor.. wahaha..

back fr camp.. kinda fun.. note ppl.. it's KINDA fun onli.. cuz it rain!! e' ferry made mi sick... almost puke.. was stuck at e' kitchen almost everidae.. slack ard.. play ard.. haha.. :p esp e' blind mice.. it's fun... kana bully by mr leslie n mr dezhang... :'( bt they care for mi too.. ahaha.. :p

dam tire after e' camp.. didn realli slp.. less den 5 hrs in 3 daes.. can u imagine tt.. argh!! bt i spent my whole fri slpin.. haha.. :p didn go out.. cuz.. MY EYE WAS SWOLLEN.. was bitten by dunno wat insect at st john.. so painful.. :'(

an outin on sat wif camp ppl.. went cine play pool.. actualli was a picnic.. bt.. it RAIN... after tt.. i went hm n e' rest cont wif their progammme.. hm to bath n off i went to meet darlin, er jir, jie fu n jeffery.. went makan.. had sting ray.. yum yum yummy... :p after tt.. went clementi.. pool again.. n KTV.. on our way hm.. darlin bought mi my favourite ben n jerry ice cream.. yum yum........

met daddy, sc, fishy n jr on dis mon for ktv session again.. went for k lunch.... met ber for a while.. he hor.. his hair.. haiyo.. no comment.. sooo mani ppl.. after tt.. we hv no idea where to go.. n dunno hu suggested tt we juz hop onto ani buses tt come.. in e' end.. we went thomson plaza for swensen.. *sinful* had main meal + earthquake.. it's soooo yummy..... bt.. still SINFUL!! argh.. after tt.. as usual.. dunno where to go.. went to bus stop.. dunno which bus to go.. in e' end.. we juz hop onto 980 n to our usual place.. concourse to play pool again.. haha.. :p 5 of us sat at e' last row.. e' feelin is like roller coaster.. dam fun lor.. after tt.. took 980 back hm again.. took e' last row again.. sooo fun... haha.. :p

sc, fishy n jr they all start sch liao.. hardli can meett up liao... :'(

met up wif darlin on tue.. went to buy new mointor wif him.. had BK n durian.. yummy yum yum..

went back sch to help up on e' orientation on wed... went back studio.. miss studio n e' toilet.. wahaha.. :p *stupid* took a lot of pic on tt dae.. take n take n take.... wahaha.. :p den off to tuition...

sakae on thu.. *sinful* wif jingfang, lingsiang, clement n jason... eat n eat n eat.. walk n walk n walk.. den meet up wif leslie.. 5 of us pei him go buy watch n we settle down at starbuck fro coffee... dear n zhongjie came to meet up after tt... jingfang, lingsiang n clement went hm.. n left wif mi dear, jason, leslie n zhongjie.. went walk walk.. den went to makan at lucky plaza.. jason n leslie went hm after tt.. dear n zhongjie went to play pool.. was hvin headache.. a terrible 1... argh... :'( i juz hate to go lucky.. made mi headache... at nite.. we quarreled again.. :'( e' thg he said realli hurt mi.. i cant help myself bt cry silentli..... didn slp well.. cant realli slp..

had brunch wif leslie 2dae den pei him go amk to buy sth... haha.. :p went hm to slp again.. woke up by dear.. dam tire.. was hungry.... dear was nearby n he bought mi dim sum.. yum yum... well.. it's runnin time.. buai...

~fernny~ take care ppl.. :p

yo~Hoo~

2005-05-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. :p i'm happi.. :p i'm sad.. well.. wat i wanna sae?

not realli sad lar.. bt dulan.. cuz of e' main com.. liew.. i oso dunno wat they wan.. now i'm nt e' GL liao.. cuz they sae i nv att meetins all tt.. i got tuition lor.. other ppl oso nv go meetins.. oso can be GL.. watever.. i'll not sad abt tt.. hu cares.. haha.. :p

met rainie to shop at bugis after tuition.. haha.. bugis got a new mickey mouse shop.. haha.. gonna love tt shop liao.. n i like their paper bag.. :p met dear after tt n he sent mi hm.. n he's now slpin on my bed!! argh........ watever.. haha.. :p 3 daes cannot c him liao..

i'm gonna be away for FOC for 3 daes 2 nite.. so peepz... DUN MISS ME okok.. haha.. :p
hope everithg will be alrite.. n fun too.. scare sea sick.. omg omg.. rmb to eat medicine can liao le lar.. haha.. :p

~fernny~ take care care my fren n once again.. dun miss mi.. haha.. :p

hello

2005-05-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

hey hey... my dogs r fightin.. i'm here bloggin.. er jie there playin her comp.. da jie there playin her comp.. daddy n mummy in their rm watchin zhong yi zui ai xian...

I'M SUPER DUPER SIAN!!!!!!!

juz came back fr suntec.. haha.. :p dam tire.. need some slp i think............ nope.. i shld stop slpin so much.. darlin juz scold mi dis mornin.. saein i'm a pig.. argh!!! he den pig.....

time table is out.. sian.. i hate tt.. esp wed n thu..
wed juz need to go back for 2 hrs.. 10-12.. wat e'.. stupid..
den thu.. need to go back fr 8-5.. wat e'...... gonna die soon liao le lar..
mon n tue 10-5 n fri is 8-12....
so sian.. thu n fri comfirm late again liao le lar. bt not mdm siti liao.. dunno can late not? or warnin letter again???? omg omg omg.. i muz slp earli liao le lar..
still thinkin wat gems to take... ani idea? most prob music appreciation ba.. haha.. :p

watever.. let u guys c some fotos.. okok.. :p

tt's fr darlin.. haha.. forever.. he waste unwanted money.. haha.. :p

a letter fr sc.. haha.. thanx thanx.. :p it's a special letter.. haha.. :p

my frenz...

durin dis yr de v dae..

critic section n we had nth to do bt take pic.. haha.. :p

after SUBMISSION... woo~hoo~ at cartel wif my foto kakis. rain n jazz..

before n after our hair cut.. haha.. nice nice? haha.. :p

~fernny~ dam tire.. dam full *sinful*

2nd post..

2005-05-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

liew.. dam sian lor.. it's my 2nd post of e' dae... dam dam dam sian!!
actualli not tt sian de lor.. all becuz of er jie lar.. keep chantin.. sae v v v sian.. kana influence by her liao le lar.. wanna go clubbin.. bt as er jie saes.. it's dam crowded lor.. argh... sian 1/2

lucky now got ppl online tok 2 mi.. if not i'm gonna rot rot n rot at hm.. spider web is growin i think..

u noe u noe u noe.. u noe wat is spider web not? haiz.. haiz........... watever.. i think u guys dunnno de lar.. wahahahaha.. wat tokin me..??

933 now playin tong hua.. n dis is e' 4th time i hear 2dae liao le lor... shops everiwhere is playin tt song... wahaha.. i think i'm gonna sick wif tt song liao le..

dam dam dam dam dam sian... feel like drinkin suddenli.... some fruity cocktail..... yum yum.. nvm.. 1 more hr to my love in paris.. last episode liao le.. miss tt show last week.. so dis week die die oso muz muz muz watch!!!!!

i wanna complain to SAF..
y ppl doin duty still can come online de??

~fernny~ well.. enough of all e' crappingsssssssss...... wahaha...

:p

2005-05-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

ydae was a better dae for us.. dinner.. yum yum........ sooo full.. i think i'm growin fatter n fatter again.. omg omg.. muz stop all e' eatin.. went bugis to shop till e' shops r close.. darlin bought tt top i saw tt time.. haha.. :p it's a black 1.. erm erm.. i dun rmb seein darlin wear black b4.. haha.. :p watever.. nonsense lar..

oh ya. jr called mi wen i'm hvin my dinner.. haha.. he managed to call into 933.. :p he called into 9 lian huan.. haha.. n he's sooo funny.. :p tell mi all e' stuff.. his experience.. bleah bleah... bt too bad.. he's wrong. bt he sae he'll call again.. gd luck wor.. :p all e' best..

sian.. gems reg next tur n i'll be at st john.. shall ask ppl help me reg liao.. haha.. :p

argh... i wanna change hp...

nice not.. i think daddy oso wanna change to dis hp.. not sure.. bt it's nt a bad 1 leh.. quite nice.. bt i kinda sick of flip hp liao le leh.. wahhaa... n somemore.. no more $$ liao le lar.. cannot anihow spend liao.. :'( sob sob..

~fernny~ sMiLe always.. it's dinner time again...... yum yum...

aha aha....... :p

2005-05-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

mon... finalli gotta rest... bt still i got tuition.. :'( watever.. didn get enough slp!!!!!!

tue... out wif daddy, jr n finalli.. sc.. wahaha.. :p we 2 girls watch e' 2 guys play all e' stuff.. billard.. bowlin.. blah blah blah.. n mi n sc werre there chattin chattin n chattin... wahaha.. :p
went to tok tok at raffles de food court.. had dim sum.. :p yum yum..... so pai sei.. they pei mi wait for dear b4 they go hm.. wahaha.. :p
had dinner at esplanade.. den went to our usual place.. bt dis time rnd.. no more romantic nite walk.. we quarrel again....... i cannot take it animore.. he sent mi hm n i saw mummy.. i cannot take it.. i juz let everithg out.. i cried....................... I HATE THAT!! shld i juz end everithg?

wed... went back sch.. wahaha.. :p no mood.. totalli no mood.. i juz watch them dance.. tt's it... :'( den went shoppin.. argh.. spent on all e' unwanted stuff... omg omg omg!!! had dim sum buffet.. wahaha.. bt at least.. they cheer mi up.. :p thanx ppl... dear called mi.. a v unpleasant tok.. e' unsolved remain unsolved........ someone msg mi.. aha.. na.. tt's impossible.. :) sMiLe..

thu.. n tt's 2dae.. finalli gotta meet up wif everione.. sc, fishy, jr n daddy.. watched hse of wax earli in e' mornin.. 1230 de show lor.. liew.. tt show dam dam dam gross.. feel like pukin in e' middle of e' show lor.. argh!!!! walk ard.. saw umar they all.. wahaha.. they went there shop oso.. wahaha.. :p so qiao.. :p eat dam lots of thgs 2dae.. ice cream.. yum yum...... mint again.. choco.. liew.. *sinful* we tok n tok n tok n tok... tok non stop.. wahaha.. i miss u guys.. bt nvm.. we'll go out again after my camp ok.. :p i still got a lot of thgs haven sae.. wahaha.. :p aha aha... i realli enjoy my dae.. thanx ppl...

met umar they all at ps after they all went hm.. shop ard.. tok tok.. blah blah.. den walk to far east.. ask e' cap thg.. den makan again!! den hm sweet hm.. :p

I ENJOY MYSELF TODAY!!! realli realli.. :)

~fernny~ tire.. i wanna slp liao... nite all.. hv an earli nite..

oh ya.. to rainie.. she's leavin for thailand for 4 daes.. no more shoppin kaki for 4 daes.. watever.. juz rmb to buy thgs back to me.. wahaha... :p

:p

2005-05-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

aha... I'M BACK!!! wahaha... :p back fr camp... woo~hoo~ dam dam dam tire... didn realli slp since e' camp.. bth liao le lar.. dyin soon...

btw... happi mummy's dae too all mummys.... :p

camp was fun... went back sch straight away fr tuition.. miss quite a lot..
bt nvm.. had nite walk.. i'm nt e' ghost.. NOT FAIR.. i walk ard findin clues.. bt it's fun lar.. no lights no nth.. wat u can c is moon light n exit lights fr sch.. 8 stations.. i hate T5.. wahaha.. :p cuz.. aha aha aha...... bt.. i can reg some of e' 'ghost' leh.. wahaha.. :p lights off at 4 plus.. couldn slp... den ard 6 went out wif umar.. n we sing n sing n sing till other is up..
some other games n both dae n nite trasure hunt.. nite treasure hunt is a bad 1.. bad experience ya.. watever... bt still i enjoyed myself.. :p wahaha.. :p telematch.. :'( sob sob.. hurt myself.. :'( bt i enjoy cleanin e' bb court den playin.. wahaha.. dam dirty..
sing along den d-brief.. den finalli.. hm sweet hm.. :p
met dear after camp.. we sent rainie hm den hm sweet hm..
er jie cook.. curry udon..wahaha.. :p not bad lar.. :p

sat..
went tuition in e' mornin.. den had bbq at nite.. at east coast.. :p wahaha... play play n play.. forget all my troubles.. :p

sun..
suppose to go st john.. bt i didn.. mi n rainie went shoppin instead.. wahaha.. :p

~fernny~ happi mummy's dae mummy...... :p

aha aha... :p

2005-05-02T20:27:00.000+08:00

fri..
there's a camp.. bt i didn stay over.. cuz got tuition e' next mornin.. bt still.. i did go back to sch.. met rainie.. cuz we wanna go later.. :p didn realli do much cuz kinda lazy.. wahaha.. :p after tt.. hm sweet hm wif umar n fareez.. soo happi.. fareez, zhen qian n tt idiot tuson joinin us for e' camp.. yippie.. :p tuson.. as usual.. *pervert* wahaha.. :p oppz..

sat..
tuition.. kinda angry wif her.. ask her watever thg. she juz gv mi tt look wif e' same ans.. 'i dunno' argh... watever.. I REN!! wahaha.. :p hm sweet hm... met darlin in e' evenin cuz i need to collect cake at taka.. went SC find alice n she gave mi a suprise.. i saw sharon there... she's wrkin there tt dae.. wahah... soooo qiao.. :p alice walk us to taka n we went to collect cake n buy dinner back for sis n us.. :p had mos burger..wahaha.. :p soo sooo soooo full... n soo sooo soooo sinful... wahaha.. :p

sun..
we celebrated our mummy's dae.. did our hsewrk kinda earli.. cuz mi n siss wanna watch ba li lian ren... oh plz ppl.. u guys muz watch tt show.. dam nice.. wahaha.. esp tt guy.. wahaha.. soo cute.. blur yet romantic.. wahaha.. :p help mummy to fix dinner den go slp.. wahaha.. dear n jie fu came while mi n siss slpin.. *wrong timin* had steamboat.. had chilli crab.. yummi yum yum... dam dam full.. dam dam sinful... haiz.. had our cake for dessert.. *sinful sinful*

mon.. n it's 2dae!!!
at hm rest!!!! finalli.. i got time to rest!!!!!! wahaha.. slp for almost e' whole dae... wahaha.. :p

red, yellow, pink and green,
purple and oranges, blue..
i can sing the rainbow..
sing the rainbow..
sing the rainbow too...

~fernny~ aha aha.. muz be happi always.. ok.. :p sMiLe

m i too harsh?

2005-04-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

m i too harsh? haiz.......
yes yesh.. we quarrel again.. a big n huge 1... i'm too tire for all dis... toooo toooooooo tooooooooo tire.... too tire for everithg... i wanna noe wat he's thinkin.. bt.. argh.. watever...

hair cut at chpt 2 again.. :p
once again... justin dun let mi hv short hair.. :'( wahaha.. watever..
kinda like my hair now.. bt.. my face look rounder.. argh...

went shoppin.. ordered a mothers' dae cake.. gotta go collect dis sat.. mango again... yum yum... :p crazy mi n siss.. we bought 6 fila polo tee altogether.. muahaha.. *evil laugh* had a lot of food 2dae... *sinful* hm sweet hm quite earli...

~fernny~ time to take a break i think..

sad... hurt

2005-04-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

havin headache.. think i'm havin allegies.. e' itch is killin me... stop tt..
spent my whole dae thinkin... thinkin n thinkin.. STOP THAT!!
i hate my life........ not in e' mood

sky is leavin.. allan too.. for 2 weeks.. bon voyage..

tt's all for 2dae... take care peepz..

~fernny~ r we meant to be? realli?

wahaha.. :p

2005-04-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

dam dam dam tire.. dam dam dam dulan too!!!!

on sun..
went shao mu.. soo sad.. there's a funeral goin on.. n it's a guy ard my age hu passed away.. *sooo sad* *god bless* maybe he'll hv a better life up there? haiz.. watever.. after tt.. went yum cha... yum yum.. had dim sum.. went hm.. slp.. cuz not enough slp.. dam dam tire.. woke up dam earli..

on mon...
camp meetin.. sian........ go back sch.. saw honey on mrt.. wahaha... long long long time nv c her liao...... learn some camp songs.. played games.. stupid game.. human table soccer n captain ball.. wat e' hell.. 1st is usin soccer ball.. den after tt is lettuce.. n e' whole floor cover wif leaves of lettuce..w ahaha.. :p gotta clear tt..
mi, rainie, jaz n shuk was there discusin.. is tt cabbage or lettuce.. wahaha.. mi n jaz insist tt's lettuce.. rain n shuk insist tt's cabbage.. in e' end.. mi n jaz won.. wahaha.. :p *stupid*
dismiss earli.. went bugis shop wif them.. bought my night powder liao.. FINALLY!! wahaha.. :p n my mask too... walk ard.. dam tire.. went food court tok tok to kill time.. den off we go.. i went to meet daddy n jr at novena.. :p had fish n co.. yum yum.. swordfish collar.. dam dam yummy... bt v difficult to eat.. wahaha.. :p went tpy after tt.. wanna watch movie.. bt.. wrong timin.. so nv watch.. wanna go k-box.. dam ex.. den went to wat ice cream.. den to daddy's hse to watch vcd... took cab hm wif jr.. had a great time tt dae.. onli tt.. dam tire.. wahaha.. :p

2dae.. wahaha..
met daddy... pei him go his sch... den back to my sch.. props makin.. kinda fun... bt.. dam tire.. hurt my thumb.. had a cut on my thumb... :'( sob sob.. bt he didn show his care............. he had changed... nt e' one i noe last time....................... he hurt mi deepli... he disappoint mi again................ shld i end everithg here? argh.. wat m i tokin.. argh.. watever.. nonsense.. had pizza for lunch... yummy.. *sinful again* gotta go for a run tml liao... argh.. dam angry 2dae wif someone.. huever pass my no. to other ppl.. plz plz plz.. u better watch out.. if i ever one u r e' one hu gv other ppl my no... u gonna die... dam tire.. time to slp liao......... wahaha..

~fernny~ take care peepz.. :p

:p

2005-04-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

aha aha... :p happi weedend.. :p

thu.. dam tire.. went swimmin wif da jie earli in e' mornin... :p darlin came over after he got back his pink ic.. wahaha.. :p look so like a baby boy in his ic.. wahaha... sooo cute.. *onli in his ic* wahaha.. :p den actualli wanna go for dinner wif him de.. bt.. raining... den siss r hungry too.. decided to go da bao.. soli dear.. we'll go there some other time okok.. :p i swear.. i promise........ late at nite.. had a girls tok wif mummy n siss... :p

fri.. dam dam dam tire.. woke up quite late... realise had a lot of bruise here n there... all thanx to dear!!! he bite mi... :'( sob sob.. bt i think he's oso no better.. :p watch tv... watch twatch n watch b4 headin to town.. :p shop for a while.. cuz shoppin is nt our motive tt dae.. :p went runnin wif da jie.. realise.. i ran for 3 daes dis week liao... n swim for a dae.. wah.. :p 1st time in my life sia.. :p watever... had an earli nite... cuz gotta wake up earli e' next dae...

sat.. tt's 2dae... mummy woke mi up.. cuz i got a tuition on... :'( after tt.. hm sweet hm.. :p dun feel like goin out liao... cuz someone pang sei mi.. still gv mi stupid reason... blah.. :'( nvm.. cuz he gave mi an oppp to tok to someone.. wahaha.. :p watever.. sian.. gotta go for e' meetin for de camp on mon.. kinda borin leh.. watever icebreakin games blah blah blah!!! watever... de camp is on 17th to 19th may.. at st john island.. n idiot kerin they all.. tell mi all e' eerie eerie thgs happened there..... STOP THAT!!
tml gotta go shao mu again...w ahaha.. :p still rmb.. last yr.. it's all becuz of shaomu.. n i started to tok to ying.. wahaha.. :p

~fernny~ happi weekend.. :p

:p final decision...

2005-04-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

well.. i think.. i think... i think think think....

aha.. :p since he's mine.. i'll learn to treasure.. no more foolin ard liao.. muz be more serious liao.. wat i need to do 1st is not to make him jealous again... :p wahaha.. :p if we meant to be... nth can seperate us.. rite? aha.. wat nonsense i'm tokin.. well.. tml darlin ord liao.. sooo fast.. wahah... actualli he ord or nt.. makes no diff.. he already got his self claimed ord mths ago liao.. juz tt tml he gonna get back him pink ic.. tt's it.. waha.. :p watever.. :p stop e' nonsense.. gonna go tok to darlin liao le.. wahaha.. :p he wanna tell mi bed time story to let mi slp liao... :p

~fernny~ nite all..

aha.. great time..

2005-04-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

had a great time juz now.. juz reached hm fr dennis chalet.. had a dam dam earli bbq.. haha.. :p bt still i had a lot of fun.. :p

met rainie to shop ard at bugis b4 goin there.. :p saw dis bag fr bugis street... v nice leh... bt quite big.. den another bag fr project shop.. argh.. bt quite ex lor.. wat if i got $$.. wah.. tt's great.. wahaha.. :p *evil smile* watever.. went to meet jing fang at pasir ris.. we were late.. aha.. well.. both me n rainie forgotten abt e' time.. watever..

had our bbq dam earli.. ard 5 lor.. wahaha.. :p a lot a lot.. sotong.. wif dunno wat bean.. dam nice.. den sting ray.. blah blah.. n tt stupid dennis onli order mutton satay... NOT NICE!! went to beach wif rainie, jingfang, peiqi, wankee n asile.. walk ard there.. den sit on tt stones n rock there.. took pic.. liew... asile's hp is dam gd lor.. it's sooo dark.. yet.. we still can take pic... after tt.. we went to e' children's playroom play.. wahaha.. :p den all 6 of us went to e' place where there's a lot a lot of balls de.. throw here throw there.. den aim at tt clown.. poor clown.. bt.. it's fun.. :p wahaha.. :p kana chase out by e' security there.. so.. we went to arcarde instead.. asile treated us play table soccer.. wahaha.. :p dam nice lor.. mi, rainie n asile in a great.. peiqi, wankee n jingfang another.. dam fun.. wahaha.. :p after tt.. back to chalet... haha.. :p had lots n lots of fun.. back in chalet.. we girls tok inside e' rm.. n e' guys start e' fire again... alvin came n had our order.. wahaha.. bt in e' end.. i nv eat anithg tt i ordered.. i ordered volka+sprite.. bt.. he gave me volka+orange.. argh.. darlin called.. saein he come n fetch me.. bt i dun wan.. he's at boonlay.. n i'm at pasir ris lor. wat e' hell.. watever....... took a cab hm in e' end... :p

well.. i think i had a lot a lot of fun time 2dae..w ahaha.. :p a dae tt i can finalli forget all my troubles for e' time being.. :p

now.. dam dam dam tire........ ke still ask mi go down mu.. siao ar... wahaha.. :p watever.. had a great time.. hope u guys tooo.. :p well time to bath n slp liao.. nite.. :p

~fernny~ happi happi dae..

haiz..

2005-04-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

quarrel.. quarrel n quarrel... yesh.. we quarrel again.. i hate tt............. i dun think i did anithg wrong.. it's him.. not me... watever...

actualli.. i was gettin better.. feelin better after tokin to some ppl in e' afternoon.. bt after wat he said.. haiz... forget it... i think i'm still prefer bein single..... i always rmb wat he said tt dae.. well.. he tot i did not hear tt.. bt.. yes.. i did.. i heard watever he said.. i was juz too tire to reply......................

watever.. chun told mi tt her dog juz gave birth to 4 pups on sat nite.. wahaha.. congrat.. bt.. she juz told me.. 1 of e' puppies is gettin weaker.. started to reject food n e' body is gettin moren more cold.. sooo sad.. *pray hard hard for him* hope everithg is alrite...

haiz.. i'm in a dilemma.. realli realli.. i'm realli confused.. wat m i thinkin now.. i oso dunno...... r we meant to be? argh.. wat m i thinkin?

~fernny~ cheer me up... :'(

aha.. :p

2005-04-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

dam tire.. shld i go out lateR? argh.. dunno lar.. watever..

was stucked at hm e' whole dae.. watch tv eat n tt's it.. argh.. :p

went out wif dear ydae nite.. dinner n movie.. watched guess hu.. nt tt nice.. bt funny.. idiot.. e' min he saw me.. he said i fat liao.. :'( n i black liao.. wat e'... argh.. :'( walk ard after dinner.. time for movie.. dear was so bored. he dun like tt movie n slp in e' cinema.. wat e' lor.. i'm e' onli 1 laughin n watchin.. haiz.. watever.. tt's my dear...

hm sweet hm.. dam tire......... jie fu bought me some coffee wine.. yumyum.. it's v v v nice... bt a bit too sweet liao le lar.. :p bt i onli drink a bit.. cuz dear finish e' whole cup w/o mi noticin.. argh....... wat e'...

went breakfast at NS dis mornin.... had LJS.. yum yum.. sooo sinful.. bough a lot of thgs.. ice cream after breakfast.. walk ard.. den hm sweet hm.. n now.. I WANNA GO SLP LIAO LE... wahaha.. :p buai... :p

~fernny~ happi slpin.. :p

haiz...

2005-04-15T02:24:00.000+08:00

been at hm lateli... didn dare to go out.. bt my face is much better.. now is my back.. e' skin started to peel off liao.. n disgusting de rainie.. sae it look like tako pochi.. disgustin man.. still gv mi tt yummy look.. omg.. plz.. i think i can go out liao.. face still red onli... haha.. :p btw.. i'm goin for movie wif darlin tml.. wahaha.. :p long time nv c him liao.. wahaha.. :p

eat n slp n watch tv.. slp n eat n watch tv.. watever... tt's my everidae routine.. wahaha.. :p jealous? envy? wahaha.. too bad.. :p tt's my life wen i'm hvin sun burnt.. next week.. i'll go shop shop n shop like mad woman liao le.. woo~Hoo~....

~fernny~ happi holidaes.... :p

2005-04-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

http://media.planetvids.com/pvids/Sign_Music.wmv
http://media.planetvids.com/pvids/Smoking_kills_hamster.wmv

kerin sent me dis 2 links.. haha.. funny.. :p

wahaha.. :p

2005-04-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. miss mi? i'm burnt.. totalli burnt... skin is peelin off... omg.. :'(

thu 7th april '05
went sentosa wif my claz ppl.. it's soooos ooos oooooooo fun... playin v.ball.. swimmin in e' sea.. watchin e' starfish... runnin here n there.. water bomb.. blah... soooo fun... :) fall down.. :'( blur black now... :'( bt i still had a lot of fun... haha.. :p my leg bleed.. it's sooo painful.. bt hu cares.. fun is e' most impt.. wahahaha.. :p tok n tok n tok... i was totalli burnt.. esp my face.. no face to go out.. argh... :'( da jie n er jie call me lobster.. darlin call me apple... wat e'... met janet after dinner.. chatted for a while.. den hm sweet hm.. :p

fri 8th april '05
woke up quite late.. cuz was dam tire... no mood to go out.. fever is comin back... headache.. :'( wanna go my portfolio.. so nv go out.. darlin came to pei me instead.. ordered pizza.. yum yum.. sooo funny.. darlin insist he treatin mi n siss.. bt in e' end.. mummy forced him to take back e' money.. haha.. :p after dinner.. tok tok tok till i slp.. haha.. :p

sat 9th april '05
aha... went to gt my thg printed.. met ke they all for a while.. another burnt dae.. played b.ball for a while under tt hot dun.. omg.. made my face worse... waited for darlin to come my hse.. :p den help me feed my precious doggies.. den out we go.. swensens again.. yummie.. sudden cravin for swensen.. wahaha.. :p soooo sinful.. had ice cream.. actualli i juz wanna eat their ice cream.. tt's it.. haha.. :p watever.. walk walk.. went to buy choco for er jie.. tt idiot.. go suntec oso dun wanna buy herself.. ask mi help her buy.. argh... watever... was hm quite earli.. cuz dunno where to go.. n i was abused my darlin.. sob sob... :'(

n 2dae... i slp tro out e' dae.. juz woke up... dam tire.. later gotta mop e' floor.. bt nvm.. 2dae.. i'm gonna enjoy.. i'm havin CHILLI CRAB.. jealous? woo~hoo~ too bad.. :p tt's mine... wahaha.. granny ask mummy to buy crab.. so we'll hv chilli crab 2nite..... woo~hoo~... well.. i ate a lot 2dae... so.. gonna go for a run 2nite liao... :'( wahha.. bo biam.. if u wanna eat.. u muz do sth to it.. wahaha.. :p rite?

~fernny~ T-I-R-E H-O-L-I-D-A-Y

-guilty-

2005-04-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

haiz.. shldn be here now.. shld be at MU happying wif ailin... argh.. so soli... it's her b'dae.. n i nv go.. net, ling ask me go.. bt.. so soli.. i'm realli broke liao le.. soli soli leh... btw.. here to wish someone happi b'dae..

6/4 1stli.. of cuz ailin.. it's 12.05 le.. her b'dae le... 18 liao le wor.. girl.. so soli.. cannot go club wif u guys.. some other time ba.. realli soli.. hope ur wishes may come true.. all e' best...

5/4 it's zhong jie's b'dae.. happi 21st bdae... so soli.. nv go ur b'dae dinner tt dae... bt.. i think u guys did enjoy eatin tt much food.. wahaha.. anw..may ur wishes come true n all e' best.. :p

4/4 it's jason teo's bdae.. idiot.. happi 19th b'dae wor.. old liao le.. grow up okok.. haha.. take care wor.. free come out okok... may ur wishes come true n all e' best too.. :p

2/4 honey.. happi 18th b'dae leh... so soli.. cannot go ur chalet.. hope u enjoy urself on tt dae wor... real soli leh.. anw.. may ur wishes come true n all e' best too.. :p

30/3 it's alex b'dae... aha.. 18 liao le wor.. someone... some more.. forget my no... wat e' hell.. free come out drink leh... okok... anw.. may ur wishes come true n all e' best too.. :p

~fernny~ dun worry.. be happi.. :p

wah..

2005-04-02T03:29:00.000+08:00

wah.. so long nv blog liao le ar.. didn realise actualli.. haha.. :p as usual..

long hol.. last thu till sun... mon to wed presentation.. thu n fri test.. fri gems presentation... n tt's it.. holidae.. wahaha..

tue.. silent presentation.. ok lar.. nt bad lar.. 11 april portfolio review.. argh..
next mon need to go back studio collect my final project de model n panels n journal.. wat e'... argh..

sch.. presentation.. hm.. slp.. tt's my life for dis week.. wahaha.. :p

darlin kinda dulan wif me.. opps... haiz.. long story.. soli darling ok.. :p darlin sae no to clubbin.. he dun let me go china black next fri.. sob sob... bt i wanna go...............

auntie visit... stomach cramp... i hate dis feelin.. argh.... :(

where shld i go tml? i mean later? honey's chalet? jason's b'dae? zhong jie's b'dae? janice's clubbin session? so so sooo confused....

~fernny~ dun worry.. be happi wor..... wahaha.. :p

-no sch-

2005-03-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

there's no sch 2dae... :p woo~hoo~

ydae.. dam sian.. presentation.. argh.. idiot.. sian is e' onli wrd can discribe it.. :p wahaha.. :p CRS.. presentationa again.. another sian.. SIAN.. n more SIAN.... went fc4 makan wif jazzon n fang.. actualli wanna go queensway wif jazzon n rainie de.. bt in e' end.. nope.. cuz rainie nt feelin well.. so everione juz went hm after sch... went hm wif jazzon.. pei him take e' long way... to jurong east.. erik called.. he's on his way hm.. n i'm on my way hm too.. bt so qiao.. we met at jurong east.. in e' end.. jazzon went off 1st.. den erik sent mi hm.. so soli jazzon.. like i pang sei u like tt... so soli leh.. n pai sei to erik's fren oso... sooo pai sei.. stupid him.. insist to send mi hm.. wat e'.. pei him eat since he haven eat.. den hm sweet hm..

2dae.. woke up by a lot of ppl.. 1st is mummy.. wen she wake sis.. den more n more ppl called me.. wat e'.. 2dae i no sch lor.. wanna slp a bit longer oso cannot.. wat e' hell.. dam angry.. off hp... pei da jie go buy her stuff.. saw dis polo tee at OP..wanna buy.. bt left wif e' last piece.. n it's DIRTY.. wat e' hell.. dun wanna take e' risk.. if buy liao.. cannot wash.. so.. nv buy.. bt i like it a lot.. argh...... watever.. forget it... :'( hm sweet hm.. ate a lot 2dae.. gonna be fat pig liao... (^(oo)^) wahaha...... :p

~fernny~ tire.......

courage..

2005-03-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

courage is e' onli thg i need now...

watever... ydae.. hate ydae.. dam dam dulan.. argh.. idiot.. i cant present.. cuz i was late for sch.. n all thanx to someone... hu made e' thgs worst.. wat e' hell.. i'm gonna kill her.. argue wif e' lect.. as usual.. we lost.. idiot... ydae dam sway u noe.. idiot.. argh... on e' verge of cryin actualli.. everione hu was late ydae was dam dam dam dulan wif e' lect... n tt someone...
met erik after sch.. thanx erik for cheerin me up.. :p well.. e' train we board terminate at queenstown.. had to wait for another train.. wat e' hell.. bt too mani ppl.. couldn go in.. waited for another.. went rainie's restu to makan wif erik.. dun realli hv e' mood to eat.. didn even finish my rice.. went back hm after dinner.. cuz i no mood to shop.. erik came my hse.. he acc me watch e' jay's concert.. :p haha.. *forced by me* wahaha.. :p after tt.. he went hm...

chatted wif rainie.. told me abt e' presentation thg.. watever.. i'll juz hv to accept e' fact ba... ronald called.. sky called.. argh.. omg.. wat a life i hv.. i'm dam fan liao le.. den they all sae all dis thgs.. esp after ronald msged me sth... argh.. wat e' hell... chatted wif erik tro out e' nite.. he told me sth tt i hate to hear.. :'( watever.. all dis realli made me cry... i cried alone in e' livin room..... :'( bt well.. everithg was settled...

2dae.. almost late for sch.. erik woke me up.. cuz mummy was complainin to him tt i v difficult to wake up.. so now.. he take over mummy's position.. n wake mi up 2dae.. wahaha.. :p watever.. lucky i'm juz on time.. wahaha.. :p sch ended dam earli.. cuz mani ppl was late ydae.. n now kan silent presentation.. so.. ard 3.45.. we were dismissed.. :p went hm.. dam tire.. slp till 8+.. dinner.. wanna go runnin de.. bt was dam full... n i had dinner much later den b4.. so nv go run liao.. watever.. i'm feelin much better 2dae.. :p haha.. oh yaa.. forgotten to sae.. sch was dam fun 2dae... wahaha.. :p esp after lunch.. did CRS ppt durin lunch.. n me, rainie... as usual.. MAD.. den jason join in.. wat e' hell... we were dam noisy.. i admit.. so.. i'm so soli if we had.. or i had disturbed u guys.. wahaha.. :p took a lot of e' fotos... wahaha.. realli crazy.. presentation startin.. me n rainie n jingfang went down to co-op to buy thgs to eat.. wahaha.. chips chips n more chips.. ppl in front presentatin.. we were sittin at e' back eatin eatin n eatin.. havin picnic.. wahaha.. think tml will be another picnic dae ba.. wahaha.. :p
yihdar came.. he wanna appeal to fo EEE.. stupid.. nv bring pen.. n i had to walk all e' way to mac to lend him a pen.. wat e'.. stupid rite.. wahaha.. :p noe wat.. dis yr COP for EEE is 16.. wat e'. last yr is 26.. dis yr is 16.. so much diff...

~fernny~ be happi.. so sMiLE :)

btw.. ydae.. 21/3
it's juan's bdae.. happi 18th b'dae girl.. well.. finalli.. can go clubbin liao le rite.. wahaha.. :p watever.. wish u all e' best n may ur wishes come true.. :p

aregh...

2005-03-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

wat e' hell is dis... i'm feelin guilty... i miss him.. how i wish he's beside me now.... i feel like cryin.. feel like huggin him.. bt he's nt here...

y is there feelings? y is there love? i'm all confused...

project stress is gone.. another stress has juz arrived... i had to settle all dis.. bt y they juz dun listen n keep forcin me?

i'm nt as strong as u think.. i realli wanna cry.. wanna wanna.. wanna cry out loud...

wen i found out tt e' 1 i like is him.. i'm worried.. ppl might sae tt i onli like his $$... i'm afraid.. cuz someone out there already think so... truthfully.. i dun like his money.. n i swear..... argh... watever... lets nature takes its stride.... :p

~fernny~ dun worry be happi.. :p i'm alrite.. thanx for ur concern.. i'm juz naggin.. :p bleah

FINALLY

2005-03-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

finalli.. it's all over.. :p i'm so so soooo happi.. n i think everione in claz think so too.. ;p well... fri.. stupid.. went peace centre to collect my A1 presentation panel wif rainie, jazzon n fang.. stayed there for quite a long while cuz they haven finish quite a few thgs.. watever.. den someone called.. 'faster faster.. e' lect is lockin e' door at 12.00..' wat e' hell.. idiot rite.. we rush back to sch fr peace centre.. n idiot.. me n rainie havin car sick... almost puke u noe...
reached sch.. 4 of us ran like mad person... wahaha.. watever... managed to pass up by 12.00 11.57 is my submission time.. wahaha.. muz buy 4D liao le. wahaha.. :p went to eat wif rain, jaz, fang n juan after tt.. had mac.. now den i realise.. mac is simply soooo delicious... :p wahahaha.. :p went to meet da jie n er jie after makan... went u queensway to shop.. bought a shorts.. wahaha.. :p can go sentosa le..
met jie fu after tt.. went makan at rain there wif sis n jie fu.. yummie yummie.. n i paid for tt meal.. cost me almost 90 bucks.. wat e' hell.. den met erik after tt.. watched HITCH... aha.. to erik: dun sae i nv pei u watch movie liao le ar.. i watched wif u liao le ar.. wahaha... :p

i'm advoidin someone's call since fri... FEEL SOO BAD... i lied... argh.. i'm sooo soli.. bt we'll be fren forever...

~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~sin~

watever.. hope everithg will be alrite...

~fernny~ confused..

2005-03-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

juz did a test...
sth abt eng actualli... n guess wat.. dis is my score.. can u imagine? wahaha.. :p

Intermediate
You scored 86% Beginner, 86% Intermediate, 75% Advanced, and 61% Expert!

You have a good understanding of beginner and intermediate level commonly confused English words, getting at least 75% of the beginner and intermediate level questions correct. This is a good score. Remember, these are commonly confused English words, which means most people don't use them properly. You got a respectable score.

TIRE!!!

2005-03-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

i'm too tire for everithg... :( slpless nites make me wanna wanna die... made me sick... real sick..

went to sch 2dae... nope.. slpt at 6+ in e' mornin.. den woke up at 9+ 10... start my model again... n i finally finish my model.. wahaha.. shld upload e' pic soon.. after submission.. :p

dis whole week can no need go sch.. cuz no need mark att.. :p haha.. :p bt idiot ms han.. extra.. wanna us go CRS tml.. gotta do her presentation.. wat e' hell she wan lor.. told her liao.. idiot lor.. argh... :( if nt i can stay at hm liao le.. argh..

didn go sch again in e' mornin.. didn go lect n tutorial.. dam tire.. did my thgs at hm.. bt i did went for e' nite thg.. went to meet rainie at 5.45 at tiong bahru.. den noe wat.. we wore e' same pants.. similar slippers.. wat e'.. luckily i cant find my pink tee.. i wanted to wear.. she wore pink.. wahaha.. STUPID lor.. wahaha.. bought dinner.. :p went to sch.. ppl go back hm fr sch.. n we go sch fr hm.. stupid rite.. watever.. ate dinner.. den start wrk.. i juz cant wrk in sch.. so.. tok tok n tok... haha.. :p den did CRS ppt for a while.. cont tml.. bt me, jazzon n rainie juz joke ard.. haha.. idiot jazzon tie my hair till so high up.. like siao char bo..

went to collect my admin card wif rainie, fang n juan.. stupid rainie scare us.. we walk pass e' stairs.. den there's dis indian lady walk up.. rainie tot wat.. den scream.. scare me.. argh... bt it's dam errie actualli.. haha.. :p

hm sweet hm.. stupid.. haha.. e' whole sch onli like... NO PPL de.. dam freakin tire now.. gotta go slp for a while n cont wif my colourin le.. bye all.. :p

~fernny~ TIRE.....

super duper freakin shag n tire....

2005-03-14T16:27:00.000+08:00

i'm super duper freakin shag n tire.. i alreay nv slp for more den 5 hrs for daes... ever since thu nite... i slpt ard 4+ in e' mornin...

fri..............
i slpt at 5+ in e' mornin n woke up at up at 7+.. msg rainie.. tell her i'll be late.. n i cont slpin till 8+.. went to sch after tt.. slack.. cuz.. i already no mood to wrk liao.. dam tire... watever... GEMS.. sian 1/2.. bt was entertained by jarvie... haha.. *jarvie.. c dis.. i spell ur name correctli ok... :p* went art frenz wif rainie, fang n juan after gems.. spent my whole afternoon there.. went hm.. tire.. rest for a while.. wrk again... bt dam tire.. so slp for a while... erik called to wake me up.. bt i couldn wake up... can u imagine how tire i m? bt in e' end.. my eldest woke me up.. still 1/2 aslp.. my 2nd sis came back wif a sth for me.. wat e' hell.. erik ask her to pass me jay chou's concert vcd.. *guilty* i wanna buy de lor.. in e' end.. he bought for me.. he called me after tt.. n i scolded him for buyin tt vcd.. haha.. :p stupid.. watever..
sat....
i chatted wif him.. wrk on project till 6+ in e' mornin den went to my bed... n woke up at 10+.. ard 4 hrs of slp onli.. wat e'... did some of my project n waited for rainie, fang n jazzon to come.. fr 5.. to 6.. to 7... they came to wrk on project.. n twan e' whole nite.. start wrk after eatin.. den wrk till next dae ard 7am.. n we didn slp..
sun....
SHAG n TIRE is e' onli 2 wrds can describe all 4 of us.. since we cant finish.. they went hm for a nap n bath n i went to take a nap ard 8.. den stupid.. juz manage to slp for abt 1/2 hrs.. jie fu called n ask mi to open e' door for him... :( tire.. went back to slp after tt.. till 11.. 3 hrs of slp onli lor.. wash up a while n waited for them to come back my hse ard noon time.. start wrk again... wrk n wrk n wrk... i cannot take it liao le.. kinda quarrel wif someone.. shld sae hu.. den went to slp for a while.. ard 10-11.. den erik called to wake mi up.. :p begin wif my wrk... after a while.. rainie, fang n jazzon wanna slp liao.. so.. they went off to slp in my rm.. n i chatted wif erik on fone...
mon..
woke them up ard 3.. den i bth liao le.. i told erik dun let mi slp.. wanna him tok to me.. i juz wanna rest.. bt in e' end.. i slpt.. so he called again.. n then.. i woke up again.. haha.. :p i didn realise i slp liao le.. haha.. :p den he force me to slp for a while.. so i went to slp ard 5.. ask rainie to wake me up at 6.. bt in e' end.. i slpt till 7... haha.. :p stayed at my hm to wrk again.. all 4 of us didn go sch 2dae.. n we wrk till juz onli.. they juz left n i gotta to slp liao le... nite alll.. :p
idiot.. regreted saein i wanna go for stay at studio tml.. wanna pon again tml de.. bt argh.. gotta stay at sch till 10 tml... argh.. bt i'm gonna go to sch late... :p

~fernny~ it's sooooo nice to slp... I WANNA SLP.... :(
4 more daes to submission liao le.... 4 more daes to end of torture.... n i can slp liao... :p 4 more endless nite of wrkin on project.. 4 more daes of slpless nite too...... well.. seriousli.. need a nap now.. nite all.. :p

arhg...

2005-03-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

hey ya.. didn blog ydae.. miss mi? haha.. :p watever.. NONSENSE...

ydae... met alan for dinner? lunch? watever... cuz he sae v long nv meet liao le.. watever watever.. tt's total crap actualli... watever.... watever.. hahaha... :p soooo full... haha.. sooo sinful...

i fail my OC... wahaha.. watever..

project... omg.. dun sae le.. i haven colour... oh shit.. i did my sectional wrongli... my ruler de scale wrong... sooo mani thgs... shit.... argh... gotta do everithg again... :'( gotta do my perspective n sectional now... it's a muz fern... watever... end of nonsense... shld i go sch tml? shld i go gems? argh..... i realli hv no ideas... shld i join e' ppersonal develpoment programme? argh... sooo mani thgs... DIE... i wanna jump down now....

~fernny~ -D-E-A-D----S-I-C-K----A-N-D----T-I-R-E----O-F----A-L-L----T-H-I-S-

wahaha

2005-03-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. i didn realise it's 8th mar... it's san ba fu nui jie... wahaha.. wat e'.. tt's y so mani ppl wish me 2dae.. call me 38.. wahaha.. wat e'.. watever.. slack like hell men.. bt i manage to finish my plant schedule by 2dae.. wahaha.. n finish 2 sectional.. tml gotta do my dimension liao le.. muz muz muz finish.. den thu n fri gotta colour everithg... dam tire now.. muz slp liao le.. den weekend save for my model... haha.. tt's it... next week polish everithg n my case study.. n tt's abt it i think.. watever... i'm thinkin tooo tooo tooo perfect...

stayed back after sch wif chun, hai n jazzon to wrk.. n tt's e' time i finish my sectional... FINALLY.. i juz hate to draw lar.. it's soooo ugly.. argh.. :'( watever.. tire of all dis thg lar.. at least i complete e' whole package can liao le lar..

i was dam dam dam angry wif someone 2dae.. n i dun think she noe tt.. dam angry lor... u'll nv ever noe how angry i m.... argh... watever... she did nt spoil my mood 2dae..

ate a lot a lot in sch.. rice for my brunch.. chips, cutter fish, ice cream for snacks... noodle for dinner... den back hm.. mummy kept some rice for me.. i'm v full liao.. bt force myself to eat.. btw.. i hate it wen i'm stress... argh.. i eat n eat n eat as if nobody business.. i shld stop all dis... argh... btw.. i'm gonna go for run run dis comin hol.. everi week 3 times n swim once a week.. i'm goin sentosa next sun wif keke n alan n adrian... haha.. long time nv go sentosa liao le.. woo~hoo~ n tt's a time i can FINALLY RELAX.. watever.. end of nonsense.. time to slp... nite all..s weety dreamz..

~fernny~ nite.. :) sMiLe... dun be angry becuz of some xiao ren... wahahahaha... :p stay cheerful to be young... :p

ENOUGH

2005-03-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

argh... i had enough of project.... CAN U STOP GIVING ME SO MUCH STRESS??? I WANNA DIE......... nt onli project i'll stress.. i'm stress by everi thg... i feel so suffocated.. breathless... i need some air... dun treat me so gd.. i dun deserve it... dun wait for me.. i dun deserve it....

he's weird... i can sense tt... there's sth wrong.. he haven msg me.. he haven wish me nite.. where is he? watever....

after tokin to ke.. i realise.. i feel tt i wanna find bf now.. haha.. -_- wat e'... bt.. i dun think i'm findin ani.. i wanna stay free n single at dis moment 1st.. he broke my heart too deep tt it's nt heal back... he's such a jerk.. i hate him.. hate him lots.. 2 time me.. still wanna patch.. NO WAY.. i'm too stupid to patch wif him tt time.. STUPID... bt.. i had learnt my lesson... NEVER EVER TRUST HIM.. NEVER EVER.... i hate u francis.. i realli hate u lots... n i promise.. we'll nv ever be fren.. nv ever.... u r such a jerk.. u sae u onli love me.. u sae u miss me.. it's all lies... u better touch ur nose.. cuz ur nose is becomin bigger n bigger... longer n longer..... I HATE U....

~fernny~ wahaha.. feel soo much better now.. bt.. I'M STILL SO STRESS.. watever.. iw anna slp le.. nite.....

tong hua..

2005-03-07T20:48:00.000+08:00

tong hua.. i kinda begin like dis song liao le.. hhaha.. oso dunno y... hope my love life will oso be like fairytales like tt.. *as mani girls think so* haha.. :p bt nt like tt song tt sad lar.. i dun wanna die lar.. of cuz... :p bleah......... watever.. tong hua is a gd gd nice nice song okok.. :p

juz reached hm.... sooo dam tire.. haven bath.. so dam smelly... haha.. :p gotta go bath soon... :p haha..

sch... sian... argh... :'( new lect replace mr tan... i spent my whole dae choosin plants.. argh.. stupid rite.. ya.. i think so.. argh......... gotta finish my plantin plan by 2dae... i swear... haha.. :p watever....

went woodland library after sch.. den hm sweet hm..

dinner.. FULL.. haha.. :p

gotta noe sky more... haha.. :p kinda hv some heart to heart tok wif him.. :p i realise he's nt tt bad actualli.. noe much more abt him n his family... his complicated family background.. actualli... he's realli nt a bad guy... treat his family gd gd oso... gald tt he's thinkin liao.. haha.. he wanna quit smokin n wanna stop saein all e' vulgarities liao le... dun worry.. i'll support u de.. hahaha.. :p

~fernny~ be happi always.... :) sMiLe..

HELP ME!!

2005-03-06T16:41:00.000+08:00

i feel so loneli suddenli.. i feel soo lost.. wif no love.. no care.. no nth... i hate dis feelin.. i cried.. i cried.. i cried silentli in my heart n onli my heart noe i'm crying painfully...
FRIENDSHIP.. plz define frenship to me.. is it juz a ship made by sth called fren? or it's e' bondin between ppl? it's juz a ship made my fren.. juz to c... I'M ALL ALONE!! :'(

argh... i haven even start on my project... seriousli speakin.. i oso dunno y ppl rush like hell.. watever.. i'm all stress up.. i need a break seriousli...

i vent my anger on huever i c.. esp sky... i'm soooo soli... i dun mean to shout to u ydae n juz now... bt seriousli speakin.. tokin 2 u made mi dam dulan lor... dam dam f*kin dulan ok.. tok 2 u can vomit blood de lor.. can die de lor.. watever.. i'm oso in e' fault.. so.. i'm realli soli... watever.. let bygones be bygones..

wat is happenin? wen will my hol come? 12 more daes to submission...

i went to watch howl's movin castle ydae nite.. den went supper... nice show.. at least help me de stress a bit... erik wore e' shirt i bought.. haha.. bt bad leh.. i think... :p haha.. bt idiot sis.. made us pai sei onli... argh...

i left wif my selection of plant, planin plan, plant image plant schedule.. everithg doin wif plants... haha.. :p
case studies ~ sustainable design, spice garden, concept n residential design..
final layout~cross section~perspectives~concept development/statement
FINAL MODEL
n lastli.. ppt n binding..
2 weeks to finish all dis.. it's possible lor... watever..

~fernny~ i shldn stress myself... 12 more daes to submission...

argh.......

2005-03-05T18:04:00.000+08:00

argh.... my pimples r out again... argh... hate tt.. :'( note.. is nt pimple. is pimpleS nt e' S.. argh...

i'm goin out soon.. nt bein a gd ger.. i shld be at hm doin my project.. bt now... dinner+movie... haha.. howl's movin castle.. woo~hoo~

i'm all stink now.. juz woke up n e' weather is so dam hot.. n i sweat like hell... nv do a lot of thg for project 2dae... again.. muz chiong tml liao le... cannot slack liao fern n all my clazmates... okok.. :p actualli i'm e' onli 1 hu slack lar.. haha.. :p

well.. i'm goin to bath liao le... bye all..

~fernny~ be happi... :)

argh....

2005-03-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

argh.. wat e'... my sis call erik.. n.. argh.. watever..

sch.. SLACK.. another slackin dae.. :p wahhaa.. :p
gems.. fun.. garvie made mi laugh like mad woman.. IDIOT... wahaha.. soo cold still sae all e' lamest lame jokes... wat e' hell.............

fridae.. sooo fast... 14 daes to submission.. can u imagine.. 2 more weeks... exactli 2 more weeks.. argh.. omg omg omg..

. S : T . R : E . S : S . O : V . E : R . C : O . M : I . N : G . M : E .

bt.. i realli need a break.. i'm takin off 2dae... n chiong.. erm.. try to chiong everithg dis weekend.. nt touchin ani wrk 2dae... :p haha.. :p i'm free fr e' project.. woo~hoo~

went ps juz now.. bought a lot of nail polish.. :p den new base n top coat... finalli gt s' member of face shop le.. FINALLY... haha.. :p walk ard... n there's jean perry sales... hope to c steven... :'( dun hv.. bt there's a guy look like him... *back onli* sooo sad... haiz... walk ard... den went to marina sq for dinner.. liew.. e' senery there... best. can c e' sea.. can c e' merlion.. best place for nice senery n cheap food...... bt e' food there... okok onli lar.. nt v nice actualli... bt e' dim sum.. nt bad...

hm sweet hm.. idiot.. i almost fall... :'( my sis lar.. pull me... n almost fall in e' bus..... argh.. den both of them still sabo me in front of erik n his fren.. argh.. dun sae le... :'( sad sad...

shld i go sky's chalet tml? bt i dunno his fren lor.. wat e' hell.. shld i.. shld i nt? argh......... watever.. 2dae is my off dae.. n wanna go off n slp le.. nite alllll... hv a nice weekend.. n sweety dreamz of fernny.. nitte all... :p dun miss me.......

~fernny~ dun worry.. be happi...

2dae is mumpheng's b'dae.. happi 20th b'dae to u.. may ur wishes come true wor... all e' best to u 2........ hope u like 'e wallet we gave.. n e' cake too.. although it's dam fattenin.. bt nice rite.. hope u enjoy urself 2dae.. :p

hiaz..

2005-03-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

i saw him juz now... on e' train.. he juz stood beside me... n tt's e' song best describe us... soo near yet so far... we'r juz like stranger.. i'm a bit sad actualli.. bt it's all my fault i think... n i think there's no way we can be frenz again.. nv ever.. watever.. hope he's happi now.. hope he can find his true love ba.. wat i can do now is juz wish him all e' best... :p

wahaha...

2005-03-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. sooo mani fotos sia... rite rite.. :p

i'm soooo tire... i'm sick n tire.. fever... argh... oh no... oh no... argh.. i hate to be sick...

sch.. SLACK... die liao le lar.. my slackness is comin back le... HELP!!! cannot..

watever.. haha.. nonsense.. watever... rain rain rain... haiz.. woke up dam late.. 11+.. went sch wif alan since he wanna take cab n it's rainin soooo soooo soooo heavily... :p he came to fetch me.. n i'm allll WET... e' rain is dam heavy... was earli to sch... cuz alan claz starts at 12.30.. n he insist to go sp 1st... so.. EARLY.. bt he's late.. so soli...

went bugis to buy present for mumpheng.. her b'dae tml.. n tml.. we'r gonna hv another b'dae bash.. woo~hoo~...so... hu's next? i muz rmb to bring lighter.. muz muz.. n plates oso.. n songs for rainie... *in my head.. hopefully*

hm sweet hm... had dinner... sooo full now... gotta start my project soon.. i think.. haha.. bt i think..i better go slp ba.. dam tire... :'( omg omg.. dark rings.... panda eyes... omg omg..

btw.. thanx jazzon for helpin me buy tt pants.. haha.. i love tt pants... :p

~fernny~ i'm feelin better ppl.. thanx ppl.. :p sMiLe ppl.. :)

n lastly... happi 19th b'dae to sky... haha.. old liao sia.. someone... :p muz grow up liao okok.. dun be small kids le lar... i oso dunno wat to sae actualli.. juz tt.. e' time is nt rite yet.. u shld noe wat i'm tokin abt rite.. dun act blur again ar.. all e' best to u... well.. startin of ur 19th yr of life.. so.. watever had happened.. forget it okok.. let all e' happi thgs to happen okok.. so soli.. nt to let u be unhappi on ur b'dae.. e' best way is to act blur i think.. i noe i always made u dulan.. so soli lar... okok... grow up le lar.. dun always dulan okok.. :p may god bless u.. may god be wif u.... :p fern

on v dae..

2005-03-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

on v dae.. soooo much fun... :p

share drinks.. couple? opps.. too bad.. NOPE.. haha.. :p

me n jazzon..

rainie n jazzon

shuk, me n rainie

i juz love tt machine lots...

tt's fr jazzon.. haha.. he sae wanna gv mi n rainie rose.. n tt's our rose.. wahaha.. wat e'

tt's fr erik.. :p haha... i juz like tt bear.. haha.. :p bt.. watever.. onli e' tots tt counts.. btw.. i had too much choco liao..esp rocher on v dae.. haha.. thanx aniway.. :p

foto time

2005-03-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

foto freakz.. ahaha.. :p

after china town.. soooooo full... *at coffee bean taka*

after cuttin hair..

2005-03-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

after cuttin hair..

:p

2005-03-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

aha... aha... thanx guys. i'm alrite.. i'm juz toooooo toooo toooo stress.. tt's it.. :p
he msged me juz now.. *shock* kinda miss him now.. opps... -shldnt let someone c dis... wahaha.. if nt he'll comfirm chop off my head de.. opps... haha.. watever.. fren oso can miss fren rite..

watever.. sch.. SLACK... long time since i last slack.. seriousli speakin... i think i'm quite hardwrkin dis few daes.. so u guys agree? wahaha.. dun agree nvm.. i agree wif tt can liao.. haha.. :p watever.. dam tire... went hm slp.. actualli wanna meet keke.. bt in e' end.. she cannot make it.. i tire.. so i went hm slp lor.. ahha... :p n i juz woke up... later after dinner... gotta chiong finish my case study le........

thgs gettin better now...
love cant be force ya noe... n i totalli hv no idea hu i prefer.. him or him..... haiz.... i'm such a flirt.. as usual.. ok.. used to it le... :p bleah

francis is weird ydae nite... he smsed me ydae nite out of e' bluez..
he: i think sometime u think i'm v fan rite
me: -_- diao lor.. wat e' hell is dis.. no lor..
he: no meh... maybe i juz think too much liao
me: it's obvious u thinkin too much..
he: okok.. bt seriously speaking, is our status now frenz?
me: yes.. of cuz... if nt?
he: den ok ba.. i shall nt disturb u
me: huh? blur
..............no more reply fr him............
wat e' hell.. he smsed mi out of e' blueeezz.. wat e'.. wat's dis? -_- lor..

to sky: boy ar.. dun stress le okok... i oso v stress now.. project n project n project.. :'( wanna cry le.. bt as u sae.. i'll be strong okok.. so u oso muz be strong leh... after 1 1/2 yr.. u'll be a free bird liao le lor.. dun gv attitude to ur seg le lar.. no use de lar.. later kana charge again.. cannot come out again.. dun so stubborn can not... n oso.. so soli leh.. i promise.. i'll go out wif u once my project end okok.. dun angry le okok.. CHEER UP..... :) sMiLe

~fernny~

today.... 2/3/05
happi 22nd b'dae to.... too.... my dear... my dearie darling wei kai...... wahaha.. sure kana sabo de.. n i haven sabo u.. cannot.. bt dun worry.. i'll sabo u 1 dae wen i meet u.. I MISS YOU.. u noe.. where r u? wahaha.. :p my best 'sister' sia.. all e' best leh.. may ur wish come true.. n faster faster.. go after her.. i'm waitin for her to be my 'bro-in-law'.. wahaha...

~fernny~ i'm happi 2dae.. n ppl.. DUN WORRY.. BE HAPPPY.... ok.. :) sMiLe

2005-03-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

ydaesoo qiao.. i'm on my way to mrt station.. i saw.. i saw.. i saw sc.. wahaha.. :p sooo qiao... she's goin to sch too... n we chat n chat n chat.. :p i miss them.. i dun care.. hol is comin.. i wanna go out wif them........

sch.. ok lar.. dam hungry.. 11+ went makan wif rainie liao le.. haha..
tt's a gd pt of my course.. u can go lunch wenever u wan... tt's fr mr tay.. he ask us to tell e' new students... haha.. chiong my case studies.. after lunch..

den hm sweet hm.. n.. i met xiao boy at my hse downstair lor.. so qiao again.. he came to meet his fren... long time nv c him liao.. still e' same.. chao ah beng.. opps.. bt it's true okok.. smoke smoke smoke.. smoke si ni den u noe... some more.. he gt more tatoo le.. real beng lor.. bth him... haiz..

chattin wif sky now.. haiz.. he's soo stress... i'm sooo stress.. everione sooo stress....

~fernny~ be happi all... :p sMiLe... :) dun stress dun stress..

yoo~hoo~
happi 20th b'dae alan.. ah pek.. wahaha.. old le lar.. old le lar... so soli.. cant go to ur party on sun.. cuz was quite bz wif my project.. n u noe e' real reason ba... may ur wish come truee... n oso.. dun ask mi for present.. cuz i shared wif ke. n she haven pass to u.. :p bleah... take care..

:'(

2005-02-28T11:58:00.000+08:00

i cried.. i cried.. i cried......

let me cry alone plz... let me be... i'll cry wen stressed.. so let me be.. i'll be alrite......... trust me.....

i'm so stress up by all e' thgs tt happened.. y when there's a stress.. all e' stress will come one by one... wat is dis... i juz hate my life.... i hate all dis thg..

i chatted wif him... my heart melted.. i dun dare to tell him i miss him.. i wanna be wif him... my courage juz dun allow mi to sae all dis............

it's impossible for mi to go for someone i dun love...........

sch wrk.. argh..gonna die... loads of sch wrk waitin for mi.. *headache* construction details wasted mi 2 daes to do... argh... wat e' hell... there's more case studies. perspective, sectional, model n more n more... wat e' hell.. how can i finish all dis... 18 more daes to submission.... omg omg omg... i can feel e' stress comin.. gastric is comin back... backache is comin back... headache is comin back.. it'd been almost 2 yrs i nv had dis.. argh.. it's all becuz of dis project.. becuz of STRESS... I HATE ALL DIS.. watever.. enough of all e' argh.. mental block... all e'... all e'.. unhappy? sad? argh.. wat e' hell.. i cant think of a word..... all my anger? aiya.. watever.. let's sae some happi happi thg happened 2dae ba...

2dae is jason n julian's b'dae.. both js haha.. crap...

to jazzon...happi 18th b'dae to u wor.. haha.. :p i already said watever i wanna sae le wor.. :p dis idiot.. kana sabo le.. den sabo me.. made mi stink for e' whole dae.. er xin.. everione there r full of cake.. wahaha.. n cream.. had cake+cream facial... all thanx to him.. -_-

to julie... happi 18th b'dae to u leh.. julie julie.. aha aha.. miss u leh.. haha.. :p free muz come out leh.. btw.. all e' best to u n ur gf n everithg u do.. :p okok.. watever..

=~=HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO BOTH OF YOU=~=

2dae is mr tan last dae in sch.. gonna miss him although he's a bit.. aha aha.. :p he sae i muz work v hard for dis 3 weeks.. cuz i'm boderline case.. might repeat.... argh.. :'( add more stress to me......... argh... :'(

i'm nt feelin v well recentli.. haven recover fr cough... n i cant slp at nite.. keep wakin up at nite.. nt enough slp... pimples popin out le.... sooo sad..

gt my o eng le.. FINALLY.. pass.. wahaha... feel soo happi.. :p bt mummy still sae.. 'no gd no gd' haha.. :p i noe lar.. realli no gd.. bt at least pass.. :p

'daddy' came my hse after sch... still e' same.. NO CHANGE.. haha.. watever.. if he change.. it'll be weird callin him 'daddy' le.. haha.. :p

watever.. late le.. nite nite.. sweety dreamz.. :p take care care ppl.. :p

~fernny~ .S:T.R:E.S:S.O:V.E:R.C:O.M:I.N:G.M:E.

2005-02-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

she's no longer tt sweet sis of mine.. she had changed into a diff person.. a totalli diff person.. wat she cares is her bf.. she dun even bother abt e' family.. she scold me becuz of her bf... n she thinks she's rite.. it's all jokes.. bt the thgs she said... it's like a knife had pierce into my heart.. i'm sooooo hurt.. i'm soooo angry... n u'll nv understand my feelins.. nv ever... tears flow.... she's no longer e' sis i noe... no longer.. she can even sae i'm petty.. i'm in e' wrong.. nt her... we tried to tell her wat's wrong.. bt nth seems to get into her head.. she's too stubborn to listen to all dis.. n she thinks tt she's always rite..

i feel sooo down recentli.. got sick.. slp e' whole dae.. didn touch on my project for 3 daes till juz.. onli managed to do some case studies.. argh... no mood at all... soo mani thgs stuck in my head... i need someone to tok 2.. bt i juz couldn find ani.. i wanna find someone to drink wif.. bt couldn find ani... alan is nt in s'pore... :'( if nt he'll always there for me... argh...

i'm sooo confused.. so so so confused... i hv e' feelin of cheatin ppl's feeling.. n i hate tt... :'( soo mani thgs happened in dis 2 daes.. n i realli dunno wat to do.. i realli feel like endin my life n there'll be no more troubles... nt at all... bt it's too selfish to do tt...

sharlyn called.. n i bluff her tt everithg is alrite for me.. i'm happi wif my life now.. well.. IT"S ALL NONSENSE... i'm nt alrite... once again.. to produce my wrk.. i stress myself... i force myself.. i abuse myself.....................................................................

i feel soooo stress up now.. stress wif studies.. stress wif relationship... stress wif... stress wif family... stesssss wifff everithg ard meeee.... n i had enough... realli had enough... y is there stress? y i gt stress so easily? cry is nt e' solution.. bt i cant help bt cry... i juz hv too much tears...

i'm strong.. m i? NOPE... i juz TRIED to be strong... i'm nt as strong as wat u think.. afterall.. i'm a girl.. i'm fragile..
i'm happi.. m i? NOPE... i smile.. i laugh.. physicalli happi bt nt emotionalli happi... bt sometimes.. my emotions overcome everithg.. where i realli cant smile n laugh.....

WAT"S WRONG WIF ME!! I HATE MY LIFE... I HATE EVERYTHING.....

~fernny~ i'm hurt by wat u guys had said.. maybe nt intentionally.. i didn sae anithg doesn mean i dun care.. it's all in my heart..

was tt u?

2005-02-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

was tt u? plz tell me.........

e' med realli make mi slp n slp n slp... i shldn eat animore of tt med liao.. shld stop takin tt med... i juz woke up.. n i'm gonna go slp again...

went back to sch to pass up my theory paper n hm sweet hm.. realli bth... slpt in e' train.. n shit.. i took e' train all e' way to bishan... wat e' hell....

hm.. slp n slp n slp.. n tt's it... my bad is still there n i haven even touch on my wrk..

i still hv to
~re draw my final layout
~sectional
~construction details
~perspective
~plant palette
~hardscape palette
~model
~case studies
blah blah... still gt wat else?? cant rmb le.. argh.. hope tt's it.. n think tt's it..

~fernny~ STRESS.. nite all.. i realli bth liao le.. hope i gt e' strength to go sch tml ba.. i muz get well.. i'm wat behind for tt project.. HELP!!!! :'(

:'(

2005-02-23T17:31:00.000+08:00

sob sob... i'm sick.. freak... wat e' hell......... argh... i hate dis... block nose... argh... my cough gettin bad to worse... sore throat.. :'( fever ok liao...

didn go to sch 2dae... couldn even wake up in e' mornin.. head is bursting... n i juz woke up.. y y y? y m i sick? i cant do my wrk.. argh.. :'( i'm too tire to do liao.. i need to slp again... n my head is bursting now....... n i think i'm dyin soon..... sian.. med again... med again... gotta go eat med again... argh... finalli stay free fr all my med in e' past.. bt now... wat again.. med again... i hate tt... my head is realli bursting...... argh.... help.. i think i'm way back for my project.. bt i dun even hv e' strength to hold tt pencil... to draw... well.. i'm too tire.. i need to slp liao.. e' med makin me drowsy..

~fernny~ :'( i hate to be sick... :'(

hey hey..

2005-02-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

wah.. 1 week nv blog liao le.. now den i realise.. been bz wif my layout lar.. thgs gettin better for my studies.. bt it's gettin worst for my social life n relationships..

i oso dunno wat i gonna do... :'(

last sun.. erik came to my hse.. came to bai nian.. wahaha.. :p

on mon.. it's v dae.. another single dae... went town wif rainie, jazzon, umar, hai n shuk after sch... went to makan.. walk walk... drink drink... received a 'flower' fr jazzon.. he drew on my hand n rainie's hand.. each one 1.. wahaha.. -_- reached hm.. ahem dun let mi slp... argh.. keep smsin me.. dun let mi slp... n stupid.. he's sendin flower down.. -_- diaozz lor.. wat e'... well.. will post e' pic taken tt dae asap okok.. :p

tue another dae in sch... went out wif him after sch... ok lar.. walk ard orchard..

wed.. haha.. went to jing fang's hse for steamboat after sch wif rainie juan n jazzon... reach hm quite late.. cuz her comp kana virus n mi n jazzon help her.. played wif her sis n bro.. dam tire.. lucky thu sch start late.. haha.. :p

thu n fri SCH.. dam sian.. fri actualli meetin 'daddy' they all.. in e' end.. last min cancel.. den went hm to help my mummy to prepare e' food for sat..

sat... woke up earli earli.. cuz need to help mummy prepare food... den went to collect my sis de cake wif jie fu.. a lot ppl came.. he came.. sean n claire came.. haha.. sooo funny they all.. took quite a few fotos... n a family fotos.. soooo surprise.. daddy take foto wif us.. haha.. :p at nite.. 2nd part of e' celebration.. we went ktv.. soo nice.. bt v tire lar...

2dae.. hse wrk again.. wanna do some sectional drawin de.. bt..argh.. i'm nt realli feelin well.. sore throat.. headache.. gastric.. argh.. :'( slp e' whole dae... so nv do anithg.. :'( gotta realli realli start doin everithg tml liao le.. cannot slack animore liao le... to all my DLA fren.. CANNOT SLACK LIAO OKOK.. wahaha.. :p -_-

~fernny~ late liao.. slpin time.. n i miss everione.... n him....
i'm sooo confuse... soooo sooo sooooooo confused... i dunno wat to sae to him.. n i seldome c him online now.. i worth nth.. dun wait for me.....

help help...

2005-02-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

argh.... omg omg omg... juz got my hp bill... n guess wat... my hp bill hit $120...a rgh.. sian.. no mood now... argh...................................... hate tt...... wat e' hell is dis lar.... y sooo ex... argh argh argh....

~fernny~ sad sad..

hey ppl...

2005-02-09T19:24:00.000+08:00

hey hey... gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ar....
wahaha.. happi new yr ppl... :p it's chinese new yr... :p woo~hoo~ ang bao again... woo~hoo~

mon (7/2)
went back to sch... gems presentation.. wat e' hell.. start fr 8 lor.. argh... bt.. i nv slp at all.. argh.. watever.. after tt.. met da jie to go breakfast.. den went to buy cosmetic.. den hm sweet hm.. actualli wanna meet jazzon they all go shop de.. den go back bhss in e' nite.. bt cuz everione was tire.. so nv meet jazzon they all.. den no one wanna go back bhss.. den i kinda lazy too..so nv go lor.. in e' end.. went swim swim wif da jie n nicole.. swim n swim n swim like mad woman.. wahaha.. :p can i imagine.. i swim more den 15 laps... wahahaha...... :p went to j8 after tt.. wanna buy salmon for new yr.. den wanna shop for bags for new yr.. bt cant find ani.. to took train to ns to buy... wahaha... :p didn manage to buy ani bag.. nvm lar.. use old de oso nvm lar.. den hm sweet hm.. actualli wanna meet sky de.. bt..argh.. i already on e' bus back hm liao.. he den call.. kinda lazy.. so nv go meet him... bt stupid sky.. dunno wat he told ronald... argh.. so soli ronald.... opps.. :p sMiLe okok... there's mani better girls out there waitin for u... :p wahaha.. :p late at nite.. tiff called.. n i went to her frenz hse to collect e' dog.. luwie... she's dam dam dam cute... bt soo ke lian... will post her pic up later.. :p reach hm late late.. bath her.. comb her.. blah blah.. gotta slp wif her.. cuz she keep barkin n barkin n barkin.. argh... bt nvm...

tue (8/2)
didn hv enough slp.. cuz luwie keep barkin non stop.... gotta make her slp all tt.... argh.... :p earli in e' mornin.. da jie's fren came to help her groom... wahaha.. finalli get to c her happi face... :p woo~hoo~ bt she's leavin me... :'( sob sob... hope i gotta c her asap ba... i realli miss her now.... after sendin her off.. i did some hse wrk.. den steam boat.. yummie yummie... :p went chinatown late at nite... bought peanut for mummy n kai yun zhu for mummy n jie fu... :p ahaha.. :p back hm.. already almost 2.. bath den waited for jie fu to come.. :p he came to collect e' plant.. den erik n gang they all r downstair.. dam noisy lor.. i went to kitchen n they voice.. liew.. can u imagine how loud?

wed (9/2)
happi new yr ppl.. wahaha.. :p woke up quite earli i think... bath bath.. prepare a bit den went to bai nian liao... ang bao time... breakfast.. yummie.. always soooo mani thgs to eat... yummie.. :p bt i juz hate someone.. argh.. 1st dae of new yr.. lets nt tok abt all e' hate hate n bad bad thg ba... everione waited for adison to come.. he's soooo cute.. sooo much diff sia.. grow sooo much liao... at least nt as tiny as last time... haha... bt all e' time there was slp slp n slp... soooo cute.. after everione go hm... went to slp.. wahahaha... FINALLI.. gotta slp.. :p later gotta go watch movie again.. :p haha.. :p racing stripe... woo~Hoo~...

~fernny~ happi new yr ppl...

i miss him...

2005-02-06T11:58:00.000+08:00

omg omg... i realli miss him.. he came online n i didn realise.. argh... i miss him lots lots...

it's a shoppin dae... wahaha.. :p orchard again.. as usual.. n my legs r achin now... argh... in e' end.. i bought a new skirt, shirtl, bag, nail polish n eye lash curler.. wahaha... :p had a wonderful dinner... dam dam dam delicious... yumie.. ookok.. dam tire.. i update again..

~fernny~ nite all.. :p

mood swing?

2005-02-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

mood swing again? ya.. maybe... argh.. i hate dis.. ppl.. KILL ME.... STAB ME IN MY HEART.. plz...

i feel like cryin.. bt i cant... there's no more tears... not at all..

i miss him badli suddenli... i'm v confuse now.. v v confuse... hu i like.. seriousli speakin.. i dunno.. i realli dunno... ppl... dun ask mi... ppl.. plz dun like mi.. plz..... argh... i hate dis.. i hate all dis....

why is there feelings? why is there hurtings?
u hurt my feelings.. u made mi cry..
bt y m i still waitin for u? waitin for u to sae.. 'i love you'

i dun wanna hurt u.. nt animore..
i dun wanna hold u.. nt animore..
i dun wanna love u.. n i promise.. i'll nv love you...
cuz i wanna cry no more....

argh... i oso dunno wat happened to me.. y i miss him sooo much...

sian sian... sch.. sian.. went to sch earlier cuz wanna do my model.. my whole dae in sch doin model.. wahaha... can u imagine? left wif e' 3rd storey onli.. wahahaha... :p soo sian.. tml muz reach sch on time..argh.. cuz i'm e' 1st for interim.. argh... 8.00 lor.. sooooooo sway... argh...

stupid.. stupid.. stupid.. tokin on fone wif mr sky n 'cloud' now..w ahaha... bye all.. haha.. dun miss mi.. :p

~fernny~ misses youuuuu... :p

wat a dae...

2005-02-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

wahaha... :p forgotten to blog ydae...

ydae.. 1st feb... stupid.. went sch... help ppl do nails.. den read mag.. den slp slp n slp... stupid lor... i realli slp till liew.. dun care abt ppl ard mi liao le... was listenin to jazzon radio.. n there's dis stupid DJ saes.. 'so a brand new beging.. cuz it's e' 1st dae of e' mth.. 1st tue of e' week... 1st feb of e' yr... blah..' dun u guys think it's stupid? cuz it's life... there's always a 1st dae of a mth.. there's onli 1 tue.. wat's e' pt saein 1st tue of e' week? everidae yr gt feb.. wat e' hell is 1st feb of e' yr.. argh.. duno lar.. watever..went for gems discussion after sch.. went imm after tt wif da jie n er jie.. bought a lot of stuff.. tried a bottom fr op.. shld i buy or nt? 49.90.. shld i? bt left pink onli... argh... oh ya.. wen we walk to e' entrance.. i saw dis guy wearin jean perry's top.. i tot it's steven.. wahaha.. :p cuz it's like.. e' back... same same de... wahaha.. n he's smokin some more.. bt.. too bad... nt him.. nvm nvm.. i'm goin down expo dis fri to look for alice... n.. wahaha.. comfirm he'll be there de.. wahaha.. i miss steven........... reach hm quite late.. on e' fone wif jay.. n idiot.. i shldn hv agree on tt.. we had an agrement.. if both of us dun hv stead for 2 yrs.. *after his ns* we'll go steady.. omg omg.. can i take back my words? argh... after tt was sky... tt idiot.. as usual.. di di siao siao... wahaha.. :p keep forcin mi to intro girls to him.. wat e' hell......... forever.. 100 nian bu bian de lor... n i sae sth wrong again.. argh... can i take back? argh.. :'(

2dae.. sch.. another slackin dae... 3 daes in a row.. wanna slp.. bt cant.. went to tok tok tok wif shuk... den chun help mi tie my hair.. n as usual.. shuk came n 'help' oso.. look.. argh... crazy woman.. nope.. is girl.. wahaha.. :p upload e' pic den show u guys... haha.. :p tot i cut hair liao.. they'll nt play.. bt.. I WAS WRONG!! watever.. went makan den had CRS test.. idiot lor.. on s'pore idol again.. wat e' hell is tt... managed to finish it in an hr.. wahaha.. cuz i was dam irritated by my fone.. soli ppl.. i dun mean it.. sooo pai sei lor.. my fone keep ringing n hong beside mi keep gvin mi tt irritated sound... n after e' test.. i realise.. mani ppl heard tt n was irritated by tt.. wahahaha... :p pai sei...... fern here is realli realli soli.... went back to studio wif shuk.. play comp.. waitin for e' rest.. after tt.. dam tire.. went hm.. slp slp n slp... for a while onli.. cuz sky callled n chatted wif mi.. argh... forever de lor.. call at e' wrong time.. :p juz came back fr a run... lucky sky.. call at e' rite time.. cuz he juz call wen i juz reach hm.. haha.. :p FINALLY... stupid him.. i'm his DJ again... stupid serena again... kinda scared of tt song liao.. comfirm wen he call tml.. i gotta play for him again.. argh.. wat e' hell...

gotta go bath liao ppl.. smelly like hell.. haha.. :p

~fernny~ i'm happi.. be happi oso ok.. :p sMiLE.. :)

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2005-01-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

wahaha... FINALLY... i handed in my project for 2dae.. FINALLY.......... wahaha.... :p after soooo mani daes... FINALLY... feel soooo happi n relaz now..... let's start wif wat happened on sat ba..

sat..
actualli wanna do my porject de... bt in e' end... na... went to help mummy do kok zai... den went shop shop wif siss n jie fu... went taka.. cuz er jie n jie fu wanna buy ring... wahaha... :p den walk ard... walk walk... had my CHEESE BALLS... yummie.. dam dam delicious..... :p went ps after to meet erik to watch movie... 'shall we dance' nice nice movie.. dam nice... *thumb up* liew.. another mid nite show for dis yr...

sun..
bia all my sketches like mad woman... argh... waahahha....

well.. sch was fine 2dae... slp slp slp... play dai dee.. tok tok.. joke ard... n end of dae.. went hm.. SLP AGAIN.. sky called... haiz.. *feel soooo guilty* he told mi abt tt dennis... so soli leh... btw.. hey boy ar.. dun think so much okok..i'm sure there's mani mani much better girls out there okok.. :p
argh... i gt dark ring liao.. omg omg.. gotta go slp liao... nite all..

~fernny~ it's slpin time.. :p

well.. 1st feb '05
happi bdae to eugene n dennis..
to eugene... haha.. :p watever.. dunno he'll c dis nt.. watever..still here to wish u happi 20th b'dae to u wor.. may ur wishes come trueeeee... all e' best okok.. u muz take caare care of urself there leh... check ur mail okok... ur mailbox full!! argh.. cant send u sth.... TIME TO CHECK UR MAIL!! haha.. :p n.. dun miss mi too much.. i'll guilty de.. haha.. :p cya.. take care..
n to dennis.. haha.. BIG BULLY... happi b'dae to u too... haha.. :p all e' best n may ur wishes come true too... faster go get a gf n invite mi to ur wedding... faster faster.. i wait till my neck long liao le... haha... :p

wahahahahhaahaha

2005-01-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

didn gt e' time to blog.. was quite bz wif my theory paper.. watever..

was late for msm siti claz.. *as usual* didn my model of e' hse 2dae. FINALLY.. managed to finishe everithg.. woo~Hoo~ feel sooo happi... bt i'm bt realli feelin well 2dae.. maybe nt enough slp ba.. *headache*backache* argh... it's still hurt now lor.. :'(

bia e' model like hell lor.. stupid mdm zai..a rgh.. naggi like hell... idiot f*er.. i juz hate her lot lotzZz........

after sch.. went FC1 wif jazon they all.. they wanna eat.. n i hv no appetite at all.. after tt.. went hm.. rest for a while den off to meet them again... went to cut hair.. woo~hoO~.. wat e'.. my face look sooooo like fishball now.. wahaha.... :p

went to take neo print after my new hair wif rainie, jazzon n fang.. wat e'.. excitin machine.. 2 cam n we muz look out of which 1 is snappin.. wahaha.. :p fun fun fun... 21 shots altogether.. bt.. onli can choose 6 best out of all... argh........ dam funny lor... all of us.. haha.. :p will upload e' pic wen jazzon send mi e' pic...

walk ard.. bugis to bugis street... had mac for dinner..s ooooo full.... went chinatown to meet da jie n er jie.. walk ard.. n guess wat they buy for mi? a pair of earring.. wahaha.. n tt earrin will bring u *tao hua* wahaha.. -_- wat e'.. bt i like it lot lotzZz.. haha.. :p sooo mani ppl there lor.. bth... n e' ppl they.. dam dam dam STINK!!! n guess wat.. i saw jay's new cd.. n they r sellin at... $15.. ya.. u didn c wrongli.. it's $15 onli... dam dam cheap lor.. bt wen i go back.. no more liao... sob sob... :'( went to buy mac ice cream.. den walk walk to ppl's park.. den hm sweet hm.. cuz all e' shop startin to close liao le..

took train back... n jie fu came to meet us.. n he's now at my hse... wahaha... n i love to irritate him.. wahaha.. :p

well.. tml gonna help mummy do kok zai.. den after tt.. goin watch 'shall we dance' at nite.. so soli 'daddy' cuz i cant go out wif u.. so so so soli.. some other time okok.. :p

~fernny~
oh ya.. i forgotten to wish someone happi b'dae...
27/01/05
happi 18th b'dae yuhan... soli.. cuz it's a belated b'dae wish... haha.. may ur wishes come trueeee.. all e' best to u too... *frenz forever*

stress

2005-01-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

i can feel e' stress... i'm dying.. i hate it.. i hate it lot.....
i hv to do e' whole model of e' hse.. argh... idiot..
i'm nt feelin well now... n i hate dis feelin...
i hate dis feelin... i hate myself..

i had enough in sch.. i had enough for relationship.. n now..
I NEED PEACE.. i need a break seriousli.. hope after my interim.. everithg will be better. bt i noe 2 weeks b4 e' submission.. i'll gonna die again.. it's abvious...

i gotta do my plant n hardscape material n construction details by 2dae.. NO NEED TO SLP AGAIN... finaliz my layout by tml.. n do my study model tml in sch... perspective n sectional in 2 daes.. *sat n sun* hopefulli i can finish...

tml gonna go cut hair.. den maybe KTV.. den chinatown.. gonna skip gems tml..
sat gonna go shoppin den watch 'shall we dance'
sun.. gonna bia all my wrk like hell..
mon.. e' big dae.. gotta pass up everithg by 9am..
n whole week of 'free' time... argh..

~fernny~ ppl.. send mi to woodbridge plz.. i'm turnin mad................. i had dis course...

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2005-01-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

sch was quite alrite... juz tt... everione was doin their layout like hell.. wahaha.. :p argh... finished everithg in e' end.. FINALLY......... was abt to turn crazy in e' end.. cuz of tt level.. actualli everione was takin e' level as 1.3m.. in e' end.. it's actualli 1.8.. argh... gotta change my layout for my back yard......... wat e'.... bt.. manage to finish tt lar...

ate a lot of thgs 2dae.. wahaa.. like pig like tt..

went to FC3 to tok tok n eat eat.. den went orchard wif rainie, tiffie, fang n jazzon.. on e' mrt.. we all mad sia.. take pic.. take n take n take... wahaha.. :p took some of e' useless pic.. will upload wen free... went heeren.. walk walk n walk.. tried a pair of jeans.. didn buy.. nt nice.. n oso a bit tite.. so.. nv buy.. :p walk walk.. ate wan ton mee.. wahaha.. n noe wat.. i saw julie.. n idiot.. act dao onli.. saw him wif his gf.. he ar.. like nv change like tt.. haha.. tok to him a while.. bt he's gettin more n more lame le.. wahaha.. :p wat e'...

dam tire.. went hm after makan.. n stupid.. dunno y suddenli they started tokin in canto.. haha.. :p saw adeline on e' bus.. walk hm.. dam tire.. gotta go slp liao.. nite all...

kinda surprise a few ppl msg mi to wish mi happi b'dae.. haha.. :p thanx ppl.... haha.. :p may god bless u.. :p

~fernny~ tire dae..

happi b'dae to me..

2005-01-24T11:58:00.000+08:00

wahaha... :p officially 18.. well... no diff actualli..

sch was fun todae.. bt as usual... mon blues.. haha.. :p somemore.. as someone saed.. on b'dae mood.. haha.. :p

had tt egg, ham n cheese sandwich.. yummie yum yum... :p re drew my layout.. n mr tan help me to correct some of my mistake.. n well.. change a bit of e' layout.. tok crap wif him oso... :p as usual... :p

sch was fun.. cuz i disturb a lot of ppl.. irritate a lot of ppl.. woo~hoo~ sing n sing n sing.. as if e' whole studio is mine.. n i'm havin my mini concert.. wahaha.. :p n i'm soooo touched.. umar n gang bought mi a cake.. strawberry cake.. yummie....... n stupid.. they push tt candle sooo in.. n i cant bite it out.. n idiot tuson push my head n my face is all icin sugar.. ee.. yucks... bt fun lar.. love tt cake.. sooooo nice.. n they told mi actualli there's another cake.. bt.. SMASH.. wahaha.. :p nvm.. *touch* i swear..

thanx to lots n lots of ppl wif ur wishes.. n presents.. n cards.. n of cuz e' cake.. it's sooo yummie.. :p

went hm.. change.. n went dinner wif my family.. yummie dinner.. :p bt e' curry is a bit too spicy liao le.. bt nice.. :p omg omg.. it's soooooooooooo sinful......

~fernny~ i wish everione will be happi... happi.. n happi always....

:p happi..

2005-01-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

i cant imagine.. i'm turnin 18 in.. 5 mins time.. wahaha... :p oh ya.. ignore my previous post.. i'm alrite now.. i'm happi noe..

18 yrs.. wah.. i'm livin in dis world for 18 yrs.. it's nt easy actualli.. bt i realli hope after 2dae.. everithg will be smooth...

well.. dis 18 yrs.. i noe my parents had a hard time.. haha.. :p tt's obvious.. i realli wanna thanx them n wanna tell them... 'daddy n mummy.. i love u' *i noe it's a bit mushy.. bt hu cares...*

18 yrs is actualli quite long.. i had been tro mani ups n downs.. bt.. i'll learn to be strong de.. no worries.. :p 18.. legal to do more thgs liao.. woO~hoO~.. n i'm waitin for 21 to come.. wahaha.. :p more freedom.. watever.. nonsense..

~fernny~ thanx ppl for ur wishes...

BREAK DOWN

2005-01-23T14:35:00.000+08:00

my mood swing is back.. i haven tok to ani ppl for hrs.. i juz hate dis.. i wanna tell them.. bt.. argh... i dunno...

i gt sooo frustrated.. i cried.. my tears flow like water tap.. n i broke down in tears.. bt no one noes.. there's sooo mani thgs i wanna sae out... bt i cant.. i dun wanna hurt anione.. it feel soooo terrible puttin all in my heart.. can i juz knock onto somethg n forget everithg?? can i?

i tried my best to be a gd girl.. i tried my v best.. bt i cant..

it had been a long time i had dis feelin.. i juz dunno how to handle emotions..

no one is at hm now.. everione is out.. shoppin.. n i nv go.. hu's fault? me n my mood swing.. i wanna go.. bt..argh..

i cant think of ani nice layout.. felt so discourage my wat my lect had saed.. maybe i'm juz nt gifted in ani thg.. i juz meant to be some useless jerk...

i'm soo soli mummy, da jie n er jie.. u guys ask mi sth.. bt i nv even reply... so soli erik, jason,keke.. i realli dun feel like saein anithg.. so soli for nt replyin ur sms.. i noe u guys care for me.. bt i juz hate myself... i oso dunno wat i m doin.. i'm realli too stress up by all e' stuff tt had happened.. m i realli happi? i dunno.. i hv no idea.. maybe happi in appearance.. bt sad in heart.. i realli need a break.............. bt dyin is nt e' solution.............................................................................................

~fernny~ i'm so soli if i had hurt u..

memories..

2005-01-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

it's all memories.. i'll nv forger 22nd jan'05 love dis day sia... :p

was quite bz.. bt i enjoyed tt.. :p bz preparin all e' stuff for my bbq.. :p jason teo came to my hse in ard 3.. pass mi my present.. chat chat n chat.. den take pic.. den he went off to meet someone.. soo sad.. nv stay for my bbq.. :'( left ard 4.30.. went downstair buy some stuff.. den met rainie n some other ppl... well.. ppl started to come.. n i had lotsa fun.. i enjoyed my dae... i swear.. bt i think i'm a bad bad host.. :'( everione is like.. self entertainin lor.. bt well.. thanx ppl for comin leh...... *touch*

well.. i wanna thanx a lot of ppl.. ppl hu came 2dae... my relative..
jing, ling, ailin n mabel.. well.. net was sick.. so nv come...
den my bhss fren.. sc, fishy, daddy, blossom, alex, benny, cicil n carolin
n of cuz.. my sotong DLA ppl.. rainie, fang, juan, mumpheng, umar, shuk, jason, alvin n ash..

was so stupid.. alex was e' latest lor.. den i called n ask him where is he.. n i bluff him.. saein tt no one came lor.. wahhaa.. :p wen he came.. he was shock.. well.. tt's wat a fren call.. at least i saw no one wanna come liao.. he still come n wish mi happi b'dae... :p *touch* somemore.. he's nt feelin well... *more touch* haha.. :p

ling they all went off 1st.. den sc they all went off.. left wif DLA ppl.. they went to my hse.. n we gt open present session.. wahaha.. :p so mani presents.. esp necklace, bracelet n earrings.. wahaha... :p well.. as my mummy sae.. i'm ai mei.. okok.. so.. u noe.. everione give mi all jewellery.. :p actualli.. kinda expected lar.. haha.. :p bt nvm.. i love all e' presents.. i swear....

send them hm.. walk jazzon, fang n tiffie to bus stop.. den walk rainie, shuk n juan to mrt station.. den walk back to my hse wif umar n ash.. chat chat n chat.. waited for umar's parents to fetch them.. den hm sweet hm.. wah.. real tire.. dam tire....

think i'll tok abt it more on my next entry.. gotta go slp.. goin chinatown for breakfast earli in e' mornin..

~fernny~ memories.. thanx ppl.. fernny love u guys... n thanks for e' ang boas n e' presents... i love all of them... i swear... :p *wishes fr fernny*blesses fr fernny*

fun fun fun....

2005-01-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

it's sooooo fun 2dae.... :p i juz love 2dae.. 20th jan '05

had my breakfast.. n bloddy hell.. i spent 1 hr to finish my bloody breakfast.. i dun like my breakfast 2dae.... eee yucks...

i'm nt late for lect 2dae.. woo~hoo~ met ayid... went to studio wif him... :p he's real funny... wahaha.. :p blur sotong... went to sch.. realise.. almost e' whole claz noe abt ydae.. omg omg.. *blush* wahaha.. :p stupid.. watever.. lect was fun... cuz of firman n e' rope.... stupid.. he tie himself lor.. den mdm zai ask him to help her do sth.. he was like.. 'my hand was tied up' STUPID is e' onli word to use.. wahaha.. :p slack e' whole dae.. at umar place there.. tok tok n tok.. sing sing n sing... ya.. i'm a bad singer.. i noe tt.. bt i still love to sing.. wahaha.. so bear wif it ppl... i'll burst ur ear drum.. wahaha.. :p

went town wif rainie n jazzon.. shop ard.. dunno wat to eat.. den went taka sq.. gt food fair.. had e' cheese balls... BALLS.. wooooo... -_- haha.. :p nice.. yummie... :p had dinner b4 shoppin.. went heeren.. start out shoppin.. as usual.. 1st shop to shop in heeren is DCP.. woO~hoo~ saw e' doggie tee.. wanna buy.. bt no more size liao le.. tt 1 too small for mi.. soo sad.. den saw another tee.. on it written.. 'for god's sake.. stop smokin..' i love tt shirt.. bt dunno wanna buy nt.. so went ard..saw dis skirt.. i like tt skirt.. rainie bought tt skirt liao le.. i'm still thinkin wanna buy nt... argh........ think i'm gonna try tt skirt next week b4 decidin ba... walk ard.. saw dis huge bag.. dam huge lor.. jazzon help me take a foto of mi n tt bag.. will upload n post tml.. :p it's too late liao n i'm too tire liao.. went back to DCP... cuz rainie wanna buy a tee.. den i bought tt stop smokin tee.. den actualli wanna buy another tee... tt 'gt bone' tee.. which i already eye for a long time.. bt.. dun hv my size.. sian.. den bought another tee.. altogether 2.. n rainie oso bought 2... haha.. :p walk to far east.. cuz jazzon wanna buy some acce.. den rainie wanna buy pants.. talk n talk.. laugh n laugh.. far east is like next to heeren like tt.. v fast reach liao... shop ard... n i saw dine.. still e' same.. no change.. haha.. saw a jeans.. dun hv my size.. btw.. i hv no mood to try anithg 2dae oso lar..

went to scotts.. cuz jazzon wanna drink sth.. went coffee bean.. spent too much.. we shared our drink n mud pie.. yummie.. tok n tok n tok.. n there's dis guy.. sooo scary... gonna post his pic up tml oso.. :p he anihow take ppl de drink lor... ppl left on e' table.. he go n drink.. eee yucks.. er xin.. den some more.. he tok to himself.. omg omg.. real mad...

after tt.. late liao.. hm sweet hm.. went hm wif jazzon.. :p tire + happi dae.. bt.. rainie told me.. her hamster dead.. sooo sad.. bt i promise to help her ask alan can gv her 1 hamster.. n i haven ask him.. :p n oso.. JR IS NOT COMIN TO MY B'DAE.. at 1st i tot he's jokin.. cuz he always bluff mi.. sae he's goin oversea.. nt free.. cannot come my bdae.. bt.. no.. it's for real.. argh.. :'( watever.. u'll miss all e' fun.. wahaha.. :p

~fernny~ happi happi...

oh ya.. 20th jan '05
happi 18th b'dae to kelvin.. wish u all e' best in everithg wor.. time to grow up kelvin... wahaha.. :p may ur wishes come trueeeee... *blesses fr fernny*

it's foto time agan..

2005-01-20T01:26:00.000+08:00

nth better to do.. :p so i took pic of us... e' 8 of cuz.. wahahahaha.. :p cute rite... wahahahaha...

some pic of mi n jazzon.. wahaha.. :p

both taken durin break... nth better to do.. so take pic lor...

in claz.. we'r tokin abt where to cut hair.. stupid rite.. nth better to do lor.. mi n jazzon's finger.. wahaha.. :p

woo~hoo~

2005-01-20T00:14:00.000+08:00

hey hey... wat a slackin dae... wahaha.. :p didn do anithg lor... juz nice.. wen mi, rainie n juan step into e' studio.. markin att.. so... we gt our att marked.. woO~hoo~ nt late ok.. :p den watched a show.. 'the art of landscapin' f nt wrong.. after tt.. model makin time.. bt whole bunch of is went co-op.. it's mum mum time.. :p yummie yummie... thanx jazzon for e' milk... yummie....... :p

modle makin? erm.. no material.. nv do anithg at all.. tok e' whole dae.. sing e' whole dae...

break.. went to play comp... startin to write testi for everione.. wahaha..:p

before crs was funny.. wif ash n umar... well.. shhhhhh....

CRS... frenster again.. wahaha.. we shld be doin our own research n doin our discussion.. bt me, jazzon. rainie, fang n juan was playin frenster.. n argh... someone made mi paisei 2dae.. dam pai sei.. nvm.. i'll forget it... :p

after sch.. went to makan wif rainie... went to eat fish n chips at FC3.. ee yucks.. nt nice liao le... argh... watever.. den met rainie's fren.. yiyang.. omg.. he's fr my gems.. n all e' while mi n rainie r tokin abt e' same guy.. n we onli noe 2dae.. wat e'.. wahaha.. :p

actualli wanna go find alice.. bt she's nt wrkin 2dae.. too bad. went hm.. colected my bks.. n went to tpy n return all of them wif da jie.. :p wahaha.. :p met er jie.. den went to buy hp.. she bought samsung 330.. wahaha.. kinda like tt hp leh.. nt bad.. gt flash.. oh ya.. erik changin to s700i... argh.. i wan tt hp.. nvm.. gonna ask him to lend mi after he change to tt fone.. :p i dun care.. wahaha.. :p went novena.. n i bought a shirt.. n my sis too.. each one 1.. n.. I PAY FOR EVERYTHING... poor me.. :'( saw janet there.. she's wrkin there 2dae.. n she's comin to my b'dae.. woo~hoo~...

hm sweet hm.. well.. nt e' end of my dae... went for a run at ard 10++... n i realli run 2dae.. didn reallis top okok... wahahaha.. :p soooo proud of myself... -_- diaozzz gotta go bath liao.. nite all..

~fernny~ happi happi... n dun ever sae i love u if u dun.. argh.. stop tt..

slacking dae..

2005-01-19T13:33:00.002+08:00

wat a slackin dae... :p didn do anithg... wahaha... i'm dyin soon... wahahahahhahaha die die die die u noe? wahaha.. i'm mad... :p